As you guys might remember Troy decided to move out back into his ex girlfriends that is.
Now I know what you are thinking you are crazy if you think this is going to work out but Troy you don't know Troy how I do he promises it will work.
He said he's going to do everything to make it work and then some plus he's never gave me any reason not to trust him. However let's start back from the moving night. I was such a wreck asking him why, why are you doing this to me? He says my ex's parents are old and they cannot take care of themselves anymore. I asked him why he did not think of that before he didn't say anything so I felt like there was something off but I let it go for a moment then I brought him upstairs and told him we have to talk. His response was okay when we went upstairs I bursted out crying, asking why I wasn't good enough, I also went as far as asking him if he wanted to get back with her or was still in love with her. He said no but something was off he was cold to touch, he didn't display any real emotions but he was barely hugging me as I was crying then he pulled away, he said look at me we're going to make this work I am in love with you. My emotions are all over somehow the room is spinning. All I can think about is how he told he loves me but I am doubting it not only because he had no emotion when I was crying but because he has been wanting to wanting to hangout with his ex. I also have been so happy with this guy but I am torturing myself. He said he was moving in to basement but what if he lied and what if he lied multiple times in our relationship, then again some times I just think negative. I'm going to be optimistic everyone says leave him but he says he wants to be in a relationship with me. I asked so many questions to him and to myself about it this is going to work and everytime he reassures me that it will I just have to trust him and give him time. I am finally going to give him a choice he is coming by the house tomorrow to get the rest of his stuff. Tomorrow is finally here he seems unsure of something I am going to ask him, he actually has to tell me something he is unsure of who he wants. I am okay about more okay than I thought I would be. A few days go by he tells me he wants me back I am happy! I am clearly super happy! We actually work together all week and of course I am going to let you guys know how that goes. He was nothing but love until Friday came then he was distant and started acting weird again. I still have three more hours of work how am I going to make it through this, this feeling is killing me why is he acting like this. I am going to ask him I ask he says he's sick. He gets sent home early another employee says he saw him with his girlfriend my stomach drops because I am supposed to be his girlfriend, but I manage to convince myself it's not what it looks like that they were walking together to get food for the house or but then I see them walk pass McDonald's holding hands. I feel like I am being cut opened , later that night he decides to send me a text saying I'm sorry I don't know what I want. I decided we had to talk in person I told him he needs to let me know when he figures out who he actually wants because neither one of us wants to be taken for granted. He said he was raised by his grandparents his word still means something then he told me he won't do anything with anyone of us until he figures it out and he would let me know when he did. Months go by, he is leading me on making all these promises but still nothing is for sure I told him I really really need things to be for sure. The next day his relationship status changed but I can't not see I had to find out from a different coworker. I am crushed but mostly because he didn't tell me. All these thoughts are running through my head but the truth is he was a little boy who ran around playing with women's feelings because he doesn't know what he wants in anything. This story is not over because he also made himself out to be the victim and his ex non-exgirlfriend was dumb enough to believe it but I didn't explain anything to her, not even all the bad things he said about her I'm not going to get into detail but I didn't explain anything to her because I didn't need to the same reason please don't explain to flies that honey is sweet and taste way better than this stuff they eat. It really does suck that I lost that friendship more than anything but I mean he was fake so I guess I didn't need him anyways.
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