She is a reconteur but I'm already tired of her curtain lectures. Even though the memories of the gymnologizing are bothering my mind. We were intimate and the covenant between us is not just a mere word or a gold ring but blood.

I'm still hanging out with her cuz I'm finifugal and I hate to break up and take those baby steps again. May be because I had pistantrophobia but she become the only one whom i can put my trust on.

I forget where I lost the meraki in my soul. I no longer cafune, beacause of that she cry like an elephant...and she couldn't stop yelling at me... punching me on the chest. Looking inside my eyes..what should i do? I'm her everything, she was the love of my youth.

If i have a courage to tell her that we should halt our r/n s/p..no no..that would be veto!

will I become the one and only responsible for she felt unloved and become owner of shattered dreams? Am i not relationally violated? Yes I'm!
Did she violate someone relationally before? Yes, she does.
After joshua, the sun did not stand still. so now would be the right time and her turn to be violated. may be.

I don't think i have the courage to violate her. she used to be the object of my affection. Whatever! She is no more the virago that i used to talk all day to everybody who is concerned.

Our nearness factor is at its peak, so does our sensetivity quotient.

Our souls are jigsawed together in a way that no one can destroy. We are the only one who could do that.

The thoughts of procrastination are a demon to my flesh. I wish i'm worsted by the bond we have and get over this devil once and forever. To be honest with u, I missed her. like a lot. I want to see her again when she balter. will it help to get the momentum of my love to her? May be. May be not.

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