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Fragile love ..final part (Farewell)
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Our interactions became limited but we surpassed that stage too.
Soon, boards came to an end. Nidhi and l went on several dates and those days were the happiest moments of my youth which l still treasure. While 17 year old me had no idea what to do after 12th, Nidhi had a full fledged plan. She seemed to have a roadmap to her path of success while l was just a wanderer digging my way out of the huge forest of "career choices".
Nidhi chose medical. She told me she was appearing for NEET that year but was a little scared of not being selected. Though l comforted her, assuring her she would make it..her choice made me anxious too. She was appearing for NEET and hoping to get selected which meant she was leaving sooner or later. Leaving to a different city for not less than 6-7 years clearly meant the end. We had no future together. I knew l couldn't be a thorn to her path of succes and her being happy was my first priority. And as expected, l chose "her" over "us". Well, l didn't really have another choice, did l?
NEET examinations were to be conducted 2 months after our boards and l remember how focussed and determined she was. Oh, what a girl she is. I admired her back then and l still admire her till date.
I accompanied her to her center the day of her examination as her dad was too busy. She was so anxious she started shaking while l held her tight and assured her. I wished and prayed for her from the bottom of my heart though l knew this was probably the end.
She went inside to write her exam while l stood outside in the scorching sun as silent as a dead rock. I didn't understand what my silent meant back then but now as l look back, lm sure it means a mix of guilt and agony.
She came out hours later wearing that vibrant smile l always wished to gift her. She hugged me tight and told me that her exam went fantastic. I tried to be happy which l was for sure, but somewhere a small selfish part of me wished the opposite. The part which was petrified at the thought of us...
Our interactions became limited but we surpassed that stage too.
Soon, boards came to an end. Nidhi and l went on several dates and those days were the happiest moments of my youth which l still treasure. While 17 year old me had no idea what to do after 12th, Nidhi had a full fledged plan. She seemed to have a roadmap to her path of success while l was just a wanderer digging my way out of the huge forest of "career choices".
Nidhi chose medical. She told me she was appearing for NEET that year but was a little scared of not being selected. Though l comforted her, assuring her she would make it..her choice made me anxious too. She was appearing for NEET and hoping to get selected which meant she was leaving sooner or later. Leaving to a different city for not less than 6-7 years clearly meant the end. We had no future together. I knew l couldn't be a thorn to her path of succes and her being happy was my first priority. And as expected, l chose "her" over "us". Well, l didn't really have another choice, did l?
NEET examinations were to be conducted 2 months after our boards and l remember how focussed and determined she was. Oh, what a girl she is. I admired her back then and l still admire her till date.
I accompanied her to her center the day of her examination as her dad was too busy. She was so anxious she started shaking while l held her tight and assured her. I wished and prayed for her from the bottom of my heart though l knew this was probably the end.
She went inside to write her exam while l stood outside in the scorching sun as silent as a dead rock. I didn't understand what my silent meant back then but now as l look back, lm sure it means a mix of guilt and agony.
She came out hours later wearing that vibrant smile l always wished to gift her. She hugged me tight and told me that her exam went fantastic. I tried to be happy which l was for sure, but somewhere a small selfish part of me wished the opposite. The part which was petrified at the thought of us...
