why me why can't I be happy why do I have to be pushed away I'm sitting here shaking and my depression is going through the roof and the thoughts in my head you wouldnt understand if i told you. I cannot excape this war going though inside my head the pain suffering and cutting is all coming to my mind the darkness is slowly taking over my body. why u gotta lie to me. noone can't relate to me on what I'm going though. dont want to lie anymore im secretly drinking and poping pills every night im laying in bed wishing that i could help you help you with the pain your going through but how can u help someone thats...