Why do I always find myself at a crossroads, forced to choose between my happiness and that of others? Whether it's family, friends, or loved ones, my decisions often seem to upset those around me. It leaves me wondering why, just once, I can't choose something for myself that also makes those around me happy.

There's a relentless tug-of-war between my rights and theirs. Every choice I make feels like it's put on trial before an invisible court. I have to justify my decisions, explaining and defending my actions to everyone, constantly convincing them that I'm right. This constant pressure to be perfect is exhausting. What if I make a mistake? The fear of hearing "I told you so" from those around me is overwhelming.

Why can't there be someone who simply says, "It's okay. I'm here. Even if you fail or make a bad decision, it's okay. We all do." Why can't I find that one person who offers unconditional support and understanding?

This journey is not just about finding external validation; it's about an internal struggle as well. I want to find that balance where I can be true to myself without feeling guilty or fearful of others' reactions. It's about wanting to be seen and accepted for who I am, flaws and all.

As I continue my search for such a person, I strive to become that supportive figure myself. I want to be someone who understands that making mistakes is part of being human, and who offers compassion rather than judgment. It's a challenging path, but it's also a deeply human one. We all crave acceptance and understanding, and in learning to give it, perhaps we can also learn to receive it.

In the end, it's about creating a space where I can make choices that honor my happiness while also nurturing the relationships that matter to me. It's about finding harmony between self-love and love for others, and understanding that it's okay to seek both.

© Sarah✨️