For the longest time I have shied away from diving into this topic but there have been divine experiences that steer one into the path of enlightenment.

What's life like for a "Spiritual Healer"? No one wants to give themselves the title that they know absolutely nothing about. As I grow older, more and more of the "unexplainable" occurrences seem to slap me in the face - sorry to other healers, this is exactly what it feels like to me.

I have based my post on readings from another healer. I have added my own two cents to make sense of her two cents in my life - Haha.
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My entire life, I have realised that I am highly sensitive to energy. Being with others either energises me or drains the very life out of me. When around a sick person or anyone with pain, I tend to feel their emotions and physical ailments as my own (empath).

I am extremely intuitive and can read others very easily. I can feel negativity and catch a negative trait really easily which is why I flinch often. I generally prefer to be neutral but distance myself away very much. I know when someone is genuine to me, to my existence and life, alternatively I know when someone isn't. It's a tough path as I have been burnt often, for someone who likes being the "shoulder" they have never had, it's hard because I get myself tangled up in all sorts of situations that deeply hurt me.

I am indeed a “big picture” thinker (and I do not concern myself too much with the details). If I need to do something, I look at it in the long run which sometimes is hard for others to fathom. A lot of people ask me how I blend in and dive deep into whatever I do, I do it for cause and not applause. It takes a lot of good and bad to become really "awake".

I have gone through bouts of existential depression. I have also indeed felt chronic-like depression for the longest time. I have had questions of "Who am I?", "Why am I here?", through most of my early years - that's actually normal for everyone.

Overall, I actually enjoy feeling sadness because it puts a lot of appreciation in perspective. It's a very negative trait of mine but I feel, I am getting over my traumas however, I do feel that happiness to me has always ever been shortlived. I do feel that sadness holds a lot of beauty. I do need to work on the scales of sadness and happiness and find a balance between both.

I have felt like an outcast for most of my life. I could blend in well, however I think differently from others. In my early teen years I held the aura of a "shapeshifter", If I was in bad company then I would become bad too easily - it has taken me many years in solitude to be able to destroy latching negative forces in order to function within my natural aura.

I get overwhelmed in public easily. Too many people, scents, energies make me shocked. To a lesser extent - I enjoy the buzzing of a shopping mall. The shopping mall oozes with leisure as people are doing things to benefit them. I enjoy being a free radical amid people treating themselves to retail therapy.

I do struggle with anxiety or panic. Now, more than I ever have which is what caused a block in my solar plexus chakra. I experience digestive issues, lower back pain, I have also gained weight around the stomach (solar plexus chakra disorder). I need to get this sorted, I have tried many years to yo-yo diet, it does make sense indeed! When we experience trauma, anxiety - it is felt in our tummies(butterflies we say), majorly traumatic situations may have caused my solar plexus to shift or strain and eventually has blocked my chakra which I do need to work on. Please if you the same symptoms, do also look into a "Solar Plexus Chakra Block".

I am now the natural peacemaker between people. I see a solution and I do take it. After separating myself from negativity, I feel a lot more aligned with my life and asserting my thoughts into actions. I am able to understand solutions better.

I am indeed the confidant that people turn to in times of need. Most times I get tangled with people who have faced trauma too. I am basically a self-sacrificing peasant who takes on way too much than I can handle.

I feel drained after spending too much time around people, I am an ambivert. I hold traits of both extroverts and introverts. I can be as sociable as I can but I do need to recharge from the social cohesion.

Sensitive beings like animals and children gravitate towards me. That is true, I am also drawn to children and animals. Since I have had to grow up pretty fast without much "babying", I do enjoy the innocence of animals and babies. I love the aura of gentleness and kindness.

Other people tend to “dump” their emotional baggage onto me to deal with. Most times, I don't mind. I actually enjoy being the person who gives another person a listening ear and witnesses someone bearing their heart and soul. However, I wish I had the capacity to do it more but I have become weaker over the past few months.

I think in shades of grey rather than in black and white. I believe there will always be solutions, pride always gets in the way of these solutions. I work on my pride often as I can. I do think it's the flaw of us as humans. Our conditioning forces black and white thinking, which damages relationships, families and friendships in the long run. We are also forced in the habit of "selfishness".

I am very aware of the interconnectedness of life and deeply respect it. I know that we are all connected, religion is more than just living on a mindset of "I know what's right and my way is the truth", if that was the case then everything would only go "well" for people on one path only. Spirituality is as vast as the expanse of this universe.

I do believe in synchronicity more than coincidences. There are no coincidences, everything surfaces when they need to. When we are spiritually ready - so shall things be.

I have experienced major trauma in my life. Like the losses of important family members, life-threatening illness, near-death experiences, heartache etc and those occurrences have taught to be better and has definitely steered me on the path of overall betterment. I vow to hold my relationships, friendships and interactions closer and nurture them better.

I have gone through a spiritual awakening. I have become more spiritual and less religious. My soul holds the highest power of mine, I do not allow myself to be swayed with opinions - I focus on what needs to be done and what feels wholesome to me.

I tend to be a right-brain thinker rather than a left-brain thinker. I feel I am more artistic, creative and I enjoy the arts. I love colour and beautiful words. Being in a library is an absolute wonder for me. I wish I could collect all the books possible! Also, my brain is definitely not analytical enough for my arch nemesis, Mathematics. I definitely need to work on becoming more acquainted with my left-brain.

I do experience chronic pain in my body and I have an autoimmune disease (all those back itches meant something - a little bit of eczema. (They are indeed energetic blockages from the surges I feel daily).

I am an excellent and compassionate listener. I do love listening to others and speaking more about their lives so I understand how to help them with "recruitment"- HAHA. I did sign up and get enough scoring to study Psychology after high school but I did not have enough funds to do so. I opted to become a teacher instead, it's still a blessing. I have had the blessing to connect to people far and wide. I do recruit and train teachers and of course, I do get myself tangled in their emotions as well. I cannot stay out of the compassionate trouble streak - LOL.

I am also naturally drawn towards healing professions that help others experience balance and wholeness. I love being a part of women empowerment groups, I enjoy speaking to healers, priests, pundits, pastors, faqirs and preachers from all walks of life - Boy, I sure do love picking at their brains too. I am very curious to know about spirituality and just oneness, peace, living for a purpose higher than oneself and just "being". I have the utmost respect for anyone who heightens their spiritual knowledge and lives for more than the cycle we are generally posed with.

I do feel, distinguish between and alter the energy within and without myself. I know when to call myself out, I have been teaching myself a lot lately to not judge people, to mind my own business, to love people for their soul, the inward glow and if I don't feel it then I need to choose if I'd like that in my life or not. My recent mantra has been to figure out if I am the toxic person or not and how to solve it. Ideally, we all do have negative and positive traits. We just need to find balance and work what we need to.

I have had numerous mystical experiences. Too many to count. Just having a feeling that I need to be close to someone who is going to pass on, or I need to make time for someone who isn't okay. Most times it's a natural feeling or I meet them in dreams. It is strange to actually mention but they do occur.

The reason for my post is basically awareness, sometimes a person could read this and it could resonate on a totally different aspect in their life. Each and every one of us belongs to a different path. No path should be deemed wrong. It's so important to have a relationship with yourself. To able to say things out loud about things you like, things you'd like to change and aspire to be.

Not every person would be a healer, some people are born leaders, other are preachers, some don't know the power they hold. If your relationship with yourself is skew then you will not be able to have a functional relationship with anyone else. It took me a long time to learn that. It takes a long to unlearn negativity, to heal from pain, to listen to your own voice.

I feel that "oneself" is so important because it has the domino effect with generations of family. Have you ever heard people say? Her grandmother was like that, so she will be too? If you have kids then you inevitably deposit negative traits to them that you have not worked on. Are you okay with your child learning those traits, living a life of affecting others with it and finally passing it to the next generation? That's why in the hierarchy of life , we have all levels of people, every single person is a role player. We are intelligent beings who just need to channel ourselves in order to "Live For A Higher Purpose".


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