Episode 3- Jab they Met

Pragya's POV

"But I don't understand, why are you so desperate all the times!.. what's a big deal if I am dating other girls!.. I anyways don't feel that spark with you, just look at yourself, you are nothing but a self pitied frustrated insecured woman who doesn't even have enough friends to chill along on a Friday night!" Shravan barked out his usual frustrations on me, just as he does everyday and every night very conviniently getting into my pants through few heart melting scripted lines and if that falls short emotional manipulation would definitely serve the need of getting a good fuck for him. But can't blame him alone because fault was mine too.. Fault of loving a person so bad even though I very well knew I and my love for him was just exploited by him every day sometimes for his emotional needs and other times for his physical needs. I lost myself so hard to him that "self esteem" and "Pragya" can't be kept in a single dictionary. And I why I was doing so, in a hope that someday he would realise my love for him and would realise his mistake, but even I was not happy in a position I were, I wanted to fall out of love, break this cage of unacceptance , and fly away in the open sky. But , I could not, may be it was his validation what I was seeking for, he broke my confidence to such a level that even at some point I started believing that may be there's some fault, may be I am a disgrace... but that was not the reality , the reality was...