I understand how you feel not having anyone good in your life but dont harden your heart dont let the emotions of others get you down you are a person with a purpose you are beautuiful and your God creation he makes no mistakes dont hard your heart your not a bad person when you want change your not a mistake or burden your beautiful God made you in his image be who he call you to be.Your a woman and man who he gave the heart of him in the inside of you the more you let his love and the more you allow God to unhardened your heart dont be swayed by the things that happen on the day before today came live your life through God allow a change to change you give him it all the past grudges the past and generational curses place on your family ask God to break it let it end with you let it stop with your heart will be clean tell him the very troubles drop it in the prayer box see it disappear see it fade away.Watch him change the outlook of a another situation you face stop holden the past in place of the future take the past as a lesson live and learn that you cannot change a toxic person .Psalm 32:8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.Meaning God will counsel you in the ways of his love and his kindness he corrects us because the love him want us to get the right teachings and the right voices in our lives.Remember you are a kingdom kid God loves you the love of God changes your life and that his guidance serves as a purpose to yours life and the life that he gives you is for good and not evil .Colossians 2:7 having been firmly rooted and now built up in him and established in your faith ,just as you were instructed,and overflowing with gratitude .