I prefer to live in my dream I am more happy in my own world. I don't want to live into the reality it's just to painful and sad. life dream is just a peaceful way to live. I sleep and deeply I dig into my dreams. My life is just not perfect and I am not happy. It's a mess i am very tired of struggling with to many things. I hold myself but I can't keep up. I don't want to fall to deep where there's no light just darkness. But I don't know how long am I going to hold myself. I'm very very very tired exhausted. I'm in pain with a storm full of disaster.