Pain is felt its deeper this time, each time she's hurt another brick is added to her wall that she constructs within herself.
Her wall she's building is getting high, you can't see the top of it anymore.
It blocks out the sunlight, but how is she to bloom?

She wishes she never built this wall, she's become so use to it.
Bricks come off on a good day, but as time goes on more are going on then coming off.