I'm a teenage girl, who is yet to be finding herself. When I was younger I thought life was all about watching tv,eating chocolate and going to school. As I got older I came to realize that life is nothing like the fairytale stories or movies. Life is hard. Life is not only hard but it's also scary.

When times are hard it can be difficult to follow your heart and take another step. I've been through ups and downs but, that didn't stop me from getting back up even though sometimes it takes so much time. I like to read quotes and motivational poems when I'm down or when I just get sick of everyone around. when hard times hit, and the challenges you face are great, and you don't even know where to start, or you cant even come up with a solution to your problem, what do you Do? I've been through those times and all I did was cry alone in my bathroom floor. I would cry until My eyes become red and after a while I would look at myself in the mirror and ask myself..."what's wrong with me? What did I do to deserve this? Why is it only me?" Sometimes I would write my feelings in my diary and that's because, I didn't have someone I fully trust. I keep it to myself because it's difficult to find someone who understands. The people who break you the hardest are the same people you used to trust the most. I even reached a point where I was second guessing the people who were surrounding me were. The worst feeling is when someone you love and depend on, loves you only when you are doing what they want,and when you don't do as they wish, they insult you and humiliate you or even talk shit behind your back . When that same person is the one person you cant say no to, and if you do you'll feel terrible. You try to talk to them about your feeling and all they do Is shut you down and in their heads you're just another tool. What can I say I've seen those people too! It is really hard for you to even fake a smile around them. I normally distract myself when I'm around them. Sometimes doing Good deeds makes me happy,such as complementing someone or giving out something. It makes me forget all the stress I've been carrying on my shoulders. I realized that there are a lot of people who are dealing with bigger problems,problems I would never be able to Handle. Some people don't even have homes or food. So I try my best to understand how to be greatful. Even though life isn't easy, you don't have to give up. You can't reach upstairs without passing downstairs. My life isn't over yet. I have a lot to go through. I can't wait to see all the new ventures, that life has in store for me.


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