I was ignored
I had been tortured
I cried silently at nights
And was injured from inside
I was weak and much emotional
May be that was my fault
No one was there to heal me up
So I decided to cure myself
By doing the same with others...

Then one day I shouted
And they stayed mum
Then I understood
If you need to be strong
You've to be devil
So I decided to turn myself
Into a devil
I won't be a slave of emotions
No more a listener
Because the world is not so good
For being so much emotional.

Then each day
and night.....
I like to heard the shoutings
When I use to hurt them
I like to see tears in those nasty eyes
I like the way they get afraid off
I like to see them shrink
I like the way when they shed.

Then suddenly I stopped
I saw someone
Who's of course frightened of me
But he's so attractive
Have talkative eyes
A depth hidden and
Mysteriously so dark
That I want to drown inside
And want to read him truely
But wait,
I'm a devil do I have a choice to love
Or fell in someone's love?

And today I feel something different
When I was walking
He came in front of me
Not a single sign of fear
A simple smile on face
And of course those deep eyes
And at this moment he's looking at me.
Then breaking the tone of silence
I asked
Everyone is afraid of me
Don't you have the fear?

He said
"I saw in your eyes
Yesterday night they are crystal clear
And told me a story of past
From your sight
A tale of emotional and deeply
Broken girl from inside
You've been hurted many times
In so many different ways
But to do the same with others
That's wrong my dear.
Of course, you can protest
Against those wrong things going on
Be a good person,
Be a kind hearted one.
Don't judge me
You just having fun because
They're afraid of you.
But remember
You can't won heart of them
Because they don't love you.
Don't judge me, please
Just stay real be your kind
Try once again
Accept yourself as you're
This is not you I guess
Please, be a good human being
Not a devil
Take your time,
My girl just think it over...."

Now I really don't know what to do
I know, I never ever want to be an evil
So in my thoughts another day passed
And now I'm looking outside
My emptiness was again present in me
As I thought to be the one
And tears rolling down out of my eyes
Then suddenly a finger came
And wiped out my tears
Then a voice speak up
"So, my dear girl...
What you've decided in this new sunlight
To be the kind one or going to stay cruel?"

I just raise out my voice
I want to be real
Then shout out
I WANT TO BE REAL.....
And my eyes opened up
I wasn't there which I've dreamt off
I was still kept in that dark room
Which scares me and inject fear in me
It have seen my broken dreams
And have see me in those night of screams
Now I can't really change myself
Or transform to a devil power.
In this despair,
I can't even expect a ray of hope.

But suddenly a known voice came up
I looked up
Yes, you're right!
He's my hero
That one who's clean hearted,
Hàve talkative and deep eyes
Voice low but crystal clear...

He just said
"So my devil girl,
Are you wanna stay here
Or going to move out with me?
Wanna see the world with lots of light
And open, free night skies,
Or wanna stay in this room
And kill your dreams?
Wanna see a new life with freedom
Or deal yourself in this darkness with screams?
Please walk with me
I promise I will make you enjoy
Each moment each part of life
I will keep you happy
I know world is cruel
But it's have it's beauty too
Trust me girl
At least we can begin
To be a new change
So please say clear
I want to hear your answer my dear...."

So I replied with my decision.....
I'm ready,
To start a new life newly
For each and everything
Just strengthen me
For my each situation
Keep me strong
I promise I will also stand beside you
I just want to be independent
And really wanna
Stand with you forever....

© KalamKiDiwani