I didn't know why did I say this all? was there someone else speaking on my behalf right now? oh no I really messed it up would she never like me now, and she's so fragile at times , I don't know how will she give her tests or pass all that time alone? did I make her cry ! I'm such a jerk I should have understood she never wanted this ahhh, what do I do she's so angry right now I can't even talk to her she has a maths exam on Monday and it's Saturday, she never studies and I know she won't even try now I don't know how to ask forgiveness I ruined our friendship we cherished for so long damnit! The following day I couldn't focus on anything else but figuring out how to ask for forgiveness, I texted her on all social media called her she didn't pick calls or see any texts she didn't even come out to play or on the terrace...
I was worried a lot but what I could only do was continue with my worries. Then I realised that Monday she'll go for exams and so will I, I'll come home earlier than she does and stay at the door maybe I could see her then ! I did as planned and then she came home with her school mate, I stood there and gathered all my courage to say sorry as I went towards her, she grabbed my collar and said "I said I don't wanna see you please make way for my frnds and me to get it, go to hell now will you please"...
I knew I can't handle her today like I did always she had a bad temper, usually she forgave everyone so easily but if she was angry about something it must be serious or hurted her so bad that she behaves rude instead weak.
I know one person who could help me now I don't know if she could do it but I know she won't hesitate to help me atleast.


© drunk soul