Don't You Remember?

Don't you remember you said we could start planning our wedding,
Was that a lie too, when you said you loved me did you ever mean it?
Was anything you ever said real? Was it easier being fake rather than being you?
Why did you come for me because they told you to?

How could you betray yourself and I,
How could you think I wouldn't have given whatever it took,
How could you lie to them about me,
How could you have so much hatred to lie on me, to betray yourself for a mere 100 or two.

Don't you see I didn't give because I had to,
I gave because I was in love with us and you,
Because you needed me, and you betrayed me,
By defrauding my bank and my child and friend,
And I couldn't leave you when you were only just standing to fall.

When I suddenly saw my purpose to start with,
What broke my heart was it was you,
And your friends who stole from my nieces,
And you foolishly believed I was broke and had nothing,
When in fact you stole truly nothing,
I never told you where I kept my money,
I gave at times when I was left with nothing,
But you were able to have what you needed.

Funny how you didn't see the motherfuckers instinct at these times,
I realized it's hard when you have never really had it,
But you deprived yourself of so much,
When you chose to steal from me, most of all our government.

You said you had only asked Crystal and I,
However, it turns out that you have asked everyone.
Do you have no secrets? Do you hold no moral oath in life?
Do you have no dignity, no honor for oneself?

I honestly hope they don't leave you alone or blame it all on you,
I hope she stays for the long haul because I once wasn't going nowhere.
What I was forced to do was to give up on myself,
When you made me give up on you.

That's true love, sadly I don't think you'll ever truly know.
© cynfully