"Remember when I said we would die alone?" she asked with a gentle smile on her face, I didn't knew what it meant, she was so unpredictable that she was like a book but every chapter had this suspense.
"yeah, why? What's wrong?" I tilt my head to the side as I look at her hair slowly carressed by the air, she chuckled. The smile that keeps me speaking a beat, a question and an answer, a million heart s would skip a beat. She had honey eyes I had towered over, she was that negative girl who would just shut up and say everything when she had enough vodka under dim lights on the road. We watched the sun slowly howled down by the moon as my eyes searched for her not minding the sun but I did. " till when would you love me?" she asked, my head shot at her as she looked at me with a smile but a glimpse of sadness in her eyes, was it a gentle kind of smile or sad?, I didn't even have second thoughts as my mind held this words that kept recording on my mind again and again, 'Forever', I didn't want to say it because I would know what her plump lips would utter, 'tgere is no such thing as forever' but I didn't care, this reminded me of the way she thinked but I knew it was not it, I wanted to prove it. I Proved it and saying it would only mean I just did. "forever" I said, gentle and husky like the time when she drinked 8 glasses of whisky, she smiled and nodded, my heart once again took a heavy beat but slow, I could hear my heart drum at my rib cage. "for me," she breathed out, " for me, forever... Forever means a lifetime. And a lifetime means..." she stopped once again with a blank expression on her face but a small 'aww' at her lips directed at the sun, she wasn't frowning, she was taking a while. "would you give your life for me?" she asked, suddenly what made me laugh mentally was, I remembered those nights at the halls to her apartment I beat up a guy who had a knife supposedly her stalker almost stabbed me, I remembered her father almost taking my life and her mother... Almost poisoning me. " I already am" I smiled, "yes, forever means... I would love you till the day I die" I said as I left out an akward cough the end of my throat, she laughed, Her smile lingering at the ends of her lips. " you know I don't believe in marriage right?" she laughed once more while slapping her upper thigh, beautiful humour. "we don't need marriage" I said as I looked at the sun almost looked like crashing onto the sea, "as long as I breathe you're the only one I'll love" it seemed impossible even for her, but I'll just simply think of anything disgusting while looking at other girls, "impossible" her right brow reached for the sky as the other curled up like a wavy sea. "possible" I whispered, "when I look at them, I think of the morning you." she laughed, punching my left arm whilst she was sat beside me, "ow! But ya know," we locked eyes for a moment as finally opening my mouth, "whatever you look like seems beautiful. I'll just think of other things" I said, her smile fell but onky a tio remained, she tilted her head looking at the sun and said, "I'll love you. I love you. I'll love you even if you weren't my soulmate and is my soulmate tilk the day I die." she looked at me with sparkling eyes as thought she held the currents that was going to form on the depths of her honey eyes, "I'm going to give you every part of me, I'll love you fully even if it turns to be unrequited, because true love is what We really need to live for even if it was just made by our brains like drugs woukd make us, but atleast you are real, you're best thing that ever happened to me. "
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