...

11 views

It's not over chapter 7.
One day I went and bought a gun. I really wanted to hurt him. I went and talked with some friends of mines and they gave me some valuable information that I could ever receive and I want and told the police to help me go and get my kids away from him and they said that they couldn't help me or get involved because we were married they told me to go and steal my kids back from him. I told them I'm a little women who weigh about 125 pounds and you want me to go up against a man who stands six foot and seven inches tall and weighs about two hundred and fifteen pounds yall crazy.that was a very big man to much for me to handle. well I didn't go back I went to go stay with my twin sister, depression started to set in all I wanted to do is cry. I went to work day and night and when I came home I went straight in the room and shut the door and a lot if time my sister didn't even know I was there. My children father begged me to come back to him and he said if I didn't I wouldn't see my children again well I didn't take that offer. so one day he tried something different he tried to overdose when I got a phone call from his family I went to see him at the hospital and his sister Alice blamed me and said that I was the reason her brother tried to kill himself and she threatened to harm me but her brother told her if you put one hand on my wife you have to deal with me. I wasn't worried because I could take care of my self. I went to rhe hospital to see him out of respect for my children and because I was still married to him but I was very angry with him for keeping our kids away from me. going to the police and they telling me there's nothing they can do and wouldn't let me press charges on him I was devastated with the respect I got from the law as me being a women part of the legislature I thought we had a right to be independent individuals we have a right to work just as much as a man does if we want. the Bible speaks that a man supposed to be the head of the house, but when he fall short and can't support his family like he suppose to then we should step up abd do whatever it is to get the family through.he was one that didn't think that way we had different opinions when it came to anything. I'm speaking. as a women that has been scorned. dont let no one tell you that you can't visit your love ones. without him or you can't go anywhere that's your God given right. he's your husband not your father and he has to respect that. well as time went on I got my own place and someone told him I had my place so he brought my babies to see my place for the first time I would never forget that day. I took my babies to see my place and they told me they wanted to stay with me the only reason he brought them to see me was I lied and told I would come back to him and I lied and after seven months he seen I wasn't coming back he finally gave them back to me. I was going to be alright all them months seem like years. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep I just wanted to die. I felt like I had nothing to live for. I went to work many days before I left him with bruises all over my body from being hit and kicked and Lord the physical abuse and mental abuse.but thanks be to God for the friend that I had at work with me who never gave up on me I talked with him about the situation and he begged me to eat and to want to live. but getting hit by someone who supposed to love you and care for you. someone who I devoted my life to and gave four beautiful children that didnt matter to him at all. if he couldn't have control over me it was nothing to him. if he cared he wouldn't have hit me in front of our children's. and I thank God for teaching me and showing me the difference in when someone loves you they want hurt you.and that love don't love nobody you have to love yourself. and thats one thing I love my self and my babies. I had to relieze that I chose that man God didn't and he wasn't the man for me. you see his rib didn't fit but the one God has for me will. just because we met someone don't mean they are meant to be our mate or the father of our children's. cause when I left him he left our children's life just like that. but it's okay because they had a new father and that was God and they made it just fine. their father was just the donor all praise be to God and the glory he supplied all our needs.