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When I Became Liberated
As we look toward 2022, the time for New Year's resolutions is upon us.
In the past, I had always struggled with confidence, not in others but definitely in myself. Most people wouldn't believe it but I grew up very shy and I never enjoyed meeting new people. I'd become anxious and awkward, and it only got progressively worse as I got into my teens.
I believe the lack of acceptance I received during my time at school, having being bullied through most of it, contributed to me making assumptions about people not liking me as soon as they met me. I struggled a lot with thoughts like that, so I decided to focus my energy, my heart and soul into all things Personal Development in my early 20s after my mother passed from cancer when I was 19, and she was 45.
It was a traumatising experience and I went for a tonne of bereavement counselling and for years. It was progressive but agonisingly slow.
Depression became the norm for most of my 20s and whilst I studied Personal Development every single day, I was still freshly heartbroken, even 10 years on the anniversary of my mother's death.
That year, I decided a tribute was in order and I shaved my head for Macmillan Cancer Support. It was liberating and I was very proud for doing something I knew most people in my life would never do.
Some people close to me thought I was crazy, others were inspired. But in the end, I realised through that experience that I was strong, brave and passed all the fear that walked beside me, I was enough and I'd contributed back to the world money for charity, inspiration to some people close to me, and courage to myself, for being true to my beliefs.
Now, no matter where we are, we should always be reminded of the strengths we have within us to stand up and do what others won't.
This is a piece of my life that took me finally to the crossroads I was looking for. From then I took the path of principles, of contribution, of depth over vanity, courage, liberation and taking back my power.
#liberation #MyStory #reallife #truestory #selfbelieve #selflove #strength #courage #determination #Perspective
© Natasha Toshack
In the past, I had always struggled with confidence, not in others but definitely in myself. Most people wouldn't believe it but I grew up very shy and I never enjoyed meeting new people. I'd become anxious and awkward, and it only got progressively worse as I got into my teens.
I believe the lack of acceptance I received during my time at school, having being bullied through most of it, contributed to me making assumptions about people not liking me as soon as they met me. I struggled a lot with thoughts like that, so I decided to focus my energy, my heart and soul into all things Personal Development in my early 20s after my mother passed from cancer when I was 19, and she was 45.
It was a traumatising experience and I went for a tonne of bereavement counselling and for years. It was progressive but agonisingly slow.
Depression became the norm for most of my 20s and whilst I studied Personal Development every single day, I was still freshly heartbroken, even 10 years on the anniversary of my mother's death.
That year, I decided a tribute was in order and I shaved my head for Macmillan Cancer Support. It was liberating and I was very proud for doing something I knew most people in my life would never do.
Some people close to me thought I was crazy, others were inspired. But in the end, I realised through that experience that I was strong, brave and passed all the fear that walked beside me, I was enough and I'd contributed back to the world money for charity, inspiration to some people close to me, and courage to myself, for being true to my beliefs.
Now, no matter where we are, we should always be reminded of the strengths we have within us to stand up and do what others won't.
This is a piece of my life that took me finally to the crossroads I was looking for. From then I took the path of principles, of contribution, of depth over vanity, courage, liberation and taking back my power.
#liberation #MyStory #reallife #truestory #selfbelieve #selflove #strength #courage #determination #Perspective
© Natasha Toshack
