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#It Never Matters!!!
It never matters, literally never!!
but what??
can you guess?? okay think!!!
thinking,
thinking,
thinking,
thinking,
thinking..
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Okay stop this is time consuming ✋...
Let me share my personal experience since my childhood till today before I posted this...
okay so get ready...
this is gonna be boring..!!! 😊
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When I was kid, I was small 😄.
Unlike you all, I was very much mature and sensible.... eating soil, chalk, and pot's.. 😋
Trust me, it's really very tasty..
JUST IMAGINE MY LEVEL OF MATURITY!!!!

Okay leave! we will talk about this in the comment section... 😅
I m investing here my time so lemme continue...

So, when you were kid, what's the best comment you received from whomsoever??
May be something like, "you are very cute or smart or pretty".... right?
I believe 50% - 60% people agree with me!!!

Now how many of you got comments like -
"Abe ae panoti idhar pe kya aa gaya hai?"
"shakal dekha hai kya apna?"
"abe ae dhille idhar aa"
"Batle chal raaste se hatt"
"totle jakar bolna sikhkar aa pehle"
"Rai Tel ki dukan"
"Baap ki capacity hai kya kharidke dene ki?"
"Heroine aa gyi"
"made in china"

There are many more but I don't have that courage to type here so better leave!!!
I got these comments from non another but my own friends and family members.
I'll explain everything in short and with the reason behind these comments....
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So, I born on this blue planet so-called "Earth" on 1st December 2003. And just in 6 months... 4 people died.. My Grandfather, My elder sister, My uncle... by disease and my elder brother... what happened to him I really don't know... Nobody told me anything about him.. But he's also no more. Since that time most of my othet family members and relatives considered me unlucky for this family. They never treat me good. Where I go I carry sadness and scent of negativity on my shoulders. My presence erase the happiness of that particular moment.

Note - Thinking of others about me. Once or many a times I also felt the same but leave moving to the next one. 😅

I live in Mumbai with my family on a rent house. But I m basically from Bihar. and it's the mentality or belief of bihar's citizens.. that applying mustard oil in Hindi Rai tel on hair will give you smooth, silky and black hair. If someone from bihar is reading this then I m sure they know this. So when I was kid my mom used to apply mustard oil on my hair - Which is literally very Oily.. 😅.. because of which people used to call me "Rai tel ki dukan".
This was very childish trolling I faced. Sometimes I laugh on this coz I cried so many times on this thing when I was kid.
c'mon I was kid at that time.. my thinking was not like,
DON'T GIVE A DAMN TO THESE PEOPLE!!!

-Moving to the next one.

Again when I was kid, 😄
I was small, literally too small 😅... my other friends or classmates were like mini burj khalifa. I still remember one not so cool incident.. when my teacher asked me to write one short answer on blackboard copying from the book she handed me. My hand was not even reaching the half of the blackboard it was soooooo high... like touching the sky.. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂...
and Note - I was on my tip toe.

-Moving to the next one.

Yeah again, when I was kid,
my hair was too long, smooth and silky... BECAUSE OF "Rai Tel" It was as long as the Saree of Draupadi... c'mon guys you really don't know who is draupadi? okay ask your parents.. and just imagine my hair was as long as The River Nile.
Wow! What a metaphor!!😄
So hair was long and face was in a round shape like a boiled tomato, well can we boil tomato?? It will melt.. right? 😅
I'll try this today.
So because my face was round my parents used to call me "Golu". 😶😶😶
please, please, please don't laugh.
Manu is the nickname I got from my school friends. but at my house I'm Golu for my parents. 😅
C'mon guys Indian actor -
Varun dhawan - nickname Pappu..
Alia Bhatt - nickname Aloo..
So what's wrong in Golu?? 😄
It's cute..

Request - Please don't call me Golu. Manish is fine. ✋👍
or with whatever name you call me... 😉
No Golu!!! 😎

- Moving to the next one.

Yeah yeah Again when I was kid, 😂😂😂😂
that time and now also... I have more friends in Girls and Boys are just 6-7... Exactly it's 5. I have never been in a good terms with boys for what reason I really don't know... 😅
But my ego clashes with them... So I prefer to say something like "Ram Ram 🙏"
to these people. 😄
I used to play more with girls, games like Badminton, that House - House game, ludo, business, they had some sets of barbie house.. which were pretty cute.. 😄.. I used to bring my small monster and my car...

Okay! If you are thinking something weird about me then tag me on Who_Cares_Dot_Com.
or else let's talk about Gender Equality. 😎

This equality thinking or knowledge I have now... But when I was kid... my friends used to mock me.. saying things like.. "Ladki hai kya be?, ladkiyon ke saath kya khelta hai??" Which hurts me for so many freaking times. But at that time where I found my happiness I went there.. I did that.. I played with them... All Girls, part of my life.. were really very nice. Key word - "WERE".

- Moving to the next one.

Nope! Not kid!!! 😂😂😂
Since I live in Mumbai. You will find here citizen of almost all Indian states and people of different countries too. I saw many but know very few.
I can speak almost all Indian main languages... Marathi, Tamil, Gujarati, Punjabi, of course Hindi and English. English is not so strong but yeah I can understand and speak too. Hopefully!!
My Grandparents from my father's side live in Nepal. So I can speak Nepali language too.
The First Foreign Language. 😄
So here in Mumbai, many a times people said me things like, "Made in China", "ae Nepali" When I was my eyes were lil bit like the citizen of Nepal and China. Which, in my childhood, I didn't liked. It hurted me for so many times. Here people judged me on my face. I'm not so fair... nor I m dark too.. But that judging work of others on my face and height always hurted me. WHEN I WAS KID.

I still remember the first day of my college, where each individual was staring at me... like I'm an Alien or what?? I really don't know. But the way they stared at me was not so kind. At All. It was discouraging and demotivating, and it's double when they look at you, laugh and turn their face. I was completely feeling boycotted!!! like why??? I was so much excited to make friends on the first day of my college and I was getting this.

I remember very properly... It was just after 3 months, I was standing in the middle of the hallway... Suddenly some students I guess of 8th or 9th std came.. looked at me and literally laughed loudly showing their hands towards me. For what reason I don't know. I didn't even asked them... class door opened I went to the class took my seat and started crying... putting my head down. I shared this problem with my class teacher coz this continuously happened with me for 3 times in the same week... shocking is 2nd time girls laughed. really don't know why!!! My teacher said, "If next time this again happen then immediately come to me and let me know who are they?" I was feeling like I m getting a security facility. But this was not the solution.
I don't think it's only me who have gone through this... there are many like me..
My pronunciation of English words is not so good. I stutter when I utter lil bit heavy words. My ascent is also not that good in any language it gets mixed. like Marathi words with Tamil ascent. I can understand this it's literally very hilarious.
But laughing on someone for other unknown or silly reasons is it good?? I don't think so coz its discouraging.

Because of these comments, people are losing their natural beauty and accepting the trend of plastic make up. Temporary Beauty... I can say.. SERIOUSLY???
Really very disappointing!!!

The one comment which I didn't mentioned above was the one I got from my dad,
"chhakka hai kya be??" Chhakka means kidner.
Reason I mostly talked with girls on whatsapp. There were 23 girls on whatsapp, 2 boys and some class groups... That comments was really very disheartening and heartbreaking for me. Since that time I have never talked with my any friend on whatsapp.
Note - On whatsapp.
Please don't dare to say anything about my dad. I know how bad he felt after saying that... he even said me sorry!! But it's just I can't forget his words. How badly I cried for 2-3 days in the dead of the night, with what feeling that only the real me knows.

Including the above and the last, are the memorable one which made me decide to make myself irreplaceable...
to make myself useful...
to show them how versatile I m, and I can be...
to show them the importance of my presence,
these are the words which adds fuel to the fire burning in me since childhood to show them what I can do!!!
and trust me, I can do anything and everything for myself. and,
If I was an kidner, then I swear on god, I would have proudly said, "Yes, I'm a kidner".
What's wrong in that?
Nothing!!!

Physiologically men and women both are different,
but when it's comes to any task or activity... both are same.
RESPECT 👈 this is not a gender specified word... it's for all. Give respect to every individual you meet and know.

If I talk about people's gaze, then I wish them a very bright future, I wish they become a billionaire... and stand in the line to purchase the ticket to listen the success inspiring speech of mine.
damn, I m so kind-heart person. 😄
I want them to look at me for same duration. At least. they saw me once. coz I know I deserve their gaze. so yeah see you guys in that giant hall or ground. 👍

I'll be very honest, once I was also someone who had wish to have eyes, height, body, and many more things like someone else. But then I realize because of this I m losing myself. Liking someone else for whatever good qualities sometimes leads to hating yourself. Which is the most biggest curse we all humans can experience once in life. Always remember...
it really never matters how you look?
what's your height or weight?
what's your face color??
body, hair.. etc etc.. literally nothing matters.
Just accept yourself...
accept the real you!!
Compare yourself with others only if it brings positive change in you!!!
Every second improve yourself.
Take this kinda words as your inspiration but not the reason behind your heartbreak.
Your dream list should be never ending.
Success is not a limited happiness. Enjoy the pleasure and celebrate the happiness till infinity.

I really don't know.. what I wanted to say is clear or not...
but I hope you understand my message... so be you... there are not only one but 1000+ people who's wrong perception about you, you have to prove wrong!! 👍....
I wish you all... a all the very best for all your future endeavors...
good luck 👍
But being very honest this I wrote for myself 😂😂😂
coz same situations, feelings and words always demotivate me so why to not encourage myself by reading this again and again in future 😄... so good luck to myself too..

and thank you all for reading this big... NON-NOVEL... 😉

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