I am feeling very uneasy today. I am feeling this from a very long time. Long time here refers to almost a decade. I have never felt like this before. This feeling is not good at all. I feel broken almost every moment of day. I share all my things to my mom but this feeling is so bad that I find it extremely difficult to share it with her too. I believe there is no one who can solve this doubt of mine. This is something very big. I am feeling too much pain. There is no one who has done anything to make me feel like this. This pain is occurring by itself. I can not tell this to anyone because no one talks about it. There is no book in world that describes it properly. Everyone is unsure about it. But it's impact is so painful that I can't ignore it at all. It is all because of her.
She....It is a she. She came to my life and left but I don't understand why I can't forget her.
She was looking at me and I was looking at her. Nothing happened but something happened for sure.
Something inside me keeps forcing me to keep thinking about her.
Any person I ask will tell me that it is love, lust or something like that. But I have been in all of them before too. Why this time I can't forget it ?
There is nothing happened between me and her and my brain knows exactly that she is not the person I ever want to be with but still my heart or some secret part of my mind does not forget her.
I told her many times that I can't forget her. She does not seems to be interested in me either. I don't want to be with her. She don't need me either,...