I had this feeling from the music when I was listening to something. It made me feel empty and alive.

And here is what I felt:

Do you ever feel such stress that you want to tear your hair from your own head? Ever feel like you're not understood?

Like the world keeps fucking spinning and it won't stop for you. You just want to slow down. Slow down so you have some time to be able to cry. Time to sort out how much money you have or don't have. Time to feel something other than what you are feeling now.

I was a step away from the grave in my mind.

I was there wondering about the me in the mirror of my reflection. She is me. I am her. We are each other's shadow.

She is the devil on my shoulder. Gun in hand. At once she blows my brains out. The bullet enters my skull. It spins through the temporal lobe and the hippocampus. Front to center then out the back into open...