I wonder "Where did it change? When did it go wrong?", but I realize ever since I remember this place has alway been fucked up. I push myself away from the counter and walk out of the room quietly... I know I have to study and work hard, I know I have to be productive and practice, but I just can't. This type of interactions with people tire me and make it the last interaction I have of the day. So I go to my room, the one I share with a sibling. We are kind of close, but I can tell she is also getting annoyed of me. I stay in the doorway, deciding what to do, play games? Or go into my little world...?
You see, I have a very weird way of dreaming. Whenever I do, they are super realistic, I can almost never tell I am in a dream and whenever I do dream, there is alway this one person.. Looking so different to me. So I decided, I should sleep. I have always been curious, why do everyone look the same in a dream, but not one person every time? Is it the same person?..
(to be continued <3)