im lost. i dont know what my future will look like.
im not feminine or cool enough for people. and its sad. its sad that i fear the gym. i see pretty people working to keep shape while i just rot in my room.
i dont have the motivation. no energy damnit.
no confidence. my weight, some peoples comments have given me so much unnecessary self awareness. when does it end?
within the crowds of pretty faces and bodies where do i fit?
on the spectrum of attractiveness where am i
maybe somewhere ...