The picture you see on my cover is people that I loved & lost….( besides me next too my mom & the picture of me next too my friend) The very first picture is my dad he passed away in 98. The girl next too him was my mom when she was in her 30’s then it’s my dads obituary’s, my homegirl & I, her name is Stephanie she was murdered in 2015 by her boyfriend and she was pregnant with his baby, unfortunately the baby didn’t survive either he strangled my homegirl and left her dead. I miss her every day, she leaves behind a son & a daughter. So sad!!! My friend Eddie he was awesome he always wanted to help if he could, gave awesome advice and was always there for ya if u needed him, we’ve known him for a long time so sad we miss him every day too. the last picture is my brother he passed away in 2014. so many unimaginable deaths In my life and that’s only to name a few lost more than that. these people were everything too me, and just to think we will never get to laugh and talk and hang out again. I miss all of them so much!!!
I was angry when you died, I shouted at death like death could hear me, this isn’t fair, and I asked a thousand whys. All my questions, doubts, and fears were answered with silence. between the anger there was heartbreak and disbelief when I heard you passed away. This can’t be real, this can’t be my reality. This can’t be yours. But this nightmare of grief was reality. And the reality is I lost someone I loved. I’ll never know the reasons as to why. Yet. I don’t think there is an explanation that would make this feel okay. love has been filled with grief. what once was, can no longer be. and while the anger fades the wishing you were here never does. I’m okay a little bit about it because I know there all resting In Peace & probably in a better place than me…. I sure do miss them though!!!