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7th August 1823
... it's midnight when everyone is asleep meanwhile she kept watching stars , her eyes was bleeding sadness and pain .
it wasn't easy on her , neither on me .
I remember how I kept watching her crying while I pretended I was asleep ... I wish if I hugged her but I didn't ...
she stood up and walked toward the table and start writing something ... it took her a very long time before she put the papers down and throw her self out of the window .
I was shocked but couldn't move .. I want to scream but I didn't ... I knew if I did I would feel empty and weak
so I didn't.
in the next morning I woke up on the scream of my mother but I knew she was shocked and I do blame her since she was one of the many reasons that destroyed Olivia's life .
I walked slowly to the window and looked down to see Olivia's body covered in blood .. it was my nightmare and still .
to feel abandoned by everyone and now to see my future on Olivia's face .
Olivia's sad face .
.
I kept watching them from up there and I didn't move until I remembered the letter she wrote last night .
I went running searching about it under the covers and on the table until I found it dropped behind the chair . I held it and opened it .
and start reading it .
.............
Dear Emily .
I know you are not asleep .. I know you would rush to read this letter and I honestly wish you would . after what I will do you are going to hate me for the rest of your life because I gave up but I wish you could understand my situation whatever it was after this letter .
I love you dear , more than anything but I an oppressed to leave you alone in this world . after we've lost everything I couldn't take it more . do the right thing and get out of there tonight . pack your bags and run to homeland .. you will be safe there otherwise you will be oppressed to do stuff you won't be able to hold on .
I love you from the deep of my heart .
yours Olivia .
.......
I was crying by the time I finished reading it .
I had to do something otherwise I will end up like her .
so I started to pack my bags that night in an attempt to escape that dark and hatred castle .
it was one step .
... it's midnight when everyone is asleep meanwhile she kept watching stars , her eyes was bleeding sadness and pain .
it wasn't easy on her , neither on me .
I remember how I kept watching her crying while I pretended I was asleep ... I wish if I hugged her but I didn't ...
she stood up and walked toward the table and start writing something ... it took her a very long time before she put the papers down and throw her self out of the window .
I was shocked but couldn't move .. I want to scream but I didn't ... I knew if I did I would feel empty and weak
so I didn't.
in the next morning I woke up on the scream of my mother but I knew she was shocked and I do blame her since she was one of the many reasons that destroyed Olivia's life .
I walked slowly to the window and looked down to see Olivia's body covered in blood .. it was my nightmare and still .
to feel abandoned by everyone and now to see my future on Olivia's face .
Olivia's sad face .
.
I kept watching them from up there and I didn't move until I remembered the letter she wrote last night .
I went running searching about it under the covers and on the table until I found it dropped behind the chair . I held it and opened it .
and start reading it .
.............
Dear Emily .
I know you are not asleep .. I know you would rush to read this letter and I honestly wish you would . after what I will do you are going to hate me for the rest of your life because I gave up but I wish you could understand my situation whatever it was after this letter .
I love you dear , more than anything but I an oppressed to leave you alone in this world . after we've lost everything I couldn't take it more . do the right thing and get out of there tonight . pack your bags and run to homeland .. you will be safe there otherwise you will be oppressed to do stuff you won't be able to hold on .
I love you from the deep of my heart .
yours Olivia .
.......
I was crying by the time I finished reading it .
I had to do something otherwise I will end up like her .
so I started to pack my bags that night in an attempt to escape that dark and hatred castle .
it was one step .
