well good morning sweets .hope y'all are fine.

well took me years to take life seriously, well after the birth of my daughter that is. I decided to take control of my life, well I thought that was the case, but NO.

have you ever met someone who made u feel like no-one and nothing can hurt you. someone who makes you happy and safe in the most unexplainable way ever. someone who makes u feel important who listens to your nonsense and doesn't expect much from you😅.

well I met someone like that and for a minute there I felt happy. I felt safe, I could tell that person anything without them judging me or critiquing me. but then again, what do you do when people think his not right for you.

do you go ahead with the plans you have made together or what?

one year that has been difficult for me the most ,well I think for everyone has to be 2020, this year takes the cup.. I am defeated.

I am honestly depressed, I don't know how many times I tried committing suicide this year but funny enough nothing has happened. I feel lost, forsaken.

if only I could voice out my feelings maybe I would be fine, but I can and simply I told myself that it's better to follow rules and forget about what I want and need in life.

God I am frustrated, but I trust you😥😥😥


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