I need a huge gallon of coffee with extra sugar and a large dose of sedatives in order to accept the tragic horrible truth itself; including the evidence leading to the truth. God did not go easy on me as I had hoped and on top of that; I did not have a lot of time to mentally process any of the information because none of it was not told me in a calm, gentle, and comforting manner!! He brutally and aggressively delivered it to me all at once. It was fast, raw, and straight to the point. I was slapped very hard across the face out of the blue and was awakened from a deep sleep.... Leaving me without any room to breathe, think, or gather my emotions together!!...