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#WritcoStoryPrompt115
Do you want to live because you are afraid to die? If you think something should be written about the question, go ahead and do so.
I'm not scared of death, in fact, quite the opposite. I'm jealous of death and welcome it. I never used to be this way though. When my X Girlfriend left over a decade ago all I wanted to do was die it I was scared that I didn'to know where I was going. I was like 21 just diagnosed with kidney disease and my world was shattered. I had untreated ADHD which meant all I did was replay her leaving me 24/7 in my brain. I was miserable and taunted God. I naively took my anger and blamed him for everything. I used drugs (lethal amounts) because I just hated to feel. One day it all changed. I had received horrid head trauma and was in a coma for 8-10 days. That's where I got to feel what happens after this life here. It was so beautiful and I felt like God was showing me so I could help heal myself and others. I try to live a better life today. God shown me there are two ways you can live life one is through fear the other is through love. I could smell the roses In the air. It was absolutely beautiful. Today I only fear dying alone.
© Adhdishe
Do you want to live because you are afraid to die? If you think something should be written about the question, go ahead and do so.
I'm not scared of death, in fact, quite the opposite. I'm jealous of death and welcome it. I never used to be this way though. When my X Girlfriend left over a decade ago all I wanted to do was die it I was scared that I didn'to know where I was going. I was like 21 just diagnosed with kidney disease and my world was shattered. I had untreated ADHD which meant all I did was replay her leaving me 24/7 in my brain. I was miserable and taunted God. I naively took my anger and blamed him for everything. I used drugs (lethal amounts) because I just hated to feel. One day it all changed. I had received horrid head trauma and was in a coma for 8-10 days. That's where I got to feel what happens after this life here. It was so beautiful and I felt like God was showing me so I could help heal myself and others. I try to live a better life today. God shown me there are two ways you can live life one is through fear the other is through love. I could smell the roses In the air. It was absolutely beautiful. Today I only fear dying alone.
© Adhdishe
