I had been bound by the monster of hard illicit drugs for twenty seven years, it had caused me to get nowhere all that time, and all the money that paid for them did no good for anything, but to temporarily fill my lust for them.

I came to my senses, like I had done many times before. Except that I realized the only way I should be living life, was towards those things my heart was created to desire: love, marriage, a job that helped mature my potential, and to spend my money on giving life giving things, to present to future generations.

But, this monster living in my life stood in my way; and the Lord had helped me overcome many terrible things throughout my life. So, I casually, prayed to the Lord for help, as I saught for a way out.

Over the coming weeks, He helped me to move close to my brother's place. I had the house to myself, and He asked me, what I wanted?

I dreamed of the perfect picture of what I wanted, and He said, I would not ever be able to have it until I chose to kill that monster, once and for all eternity. I fell to my knees and started begging to receive how to slay that beast, that had hold of my desires, will, and purposes of life.

I told Him that I did not want to quit cold Turkey, because of all the years I had done them, has got my body to depend on them to function right. I did not want to die for throwing my system into shock and depleting the healing process into a chaotic state.

He reminded me how far I had gone to fulfill the lust of my flesh, and how bit by bit, year by year, I had become weak unto its power over my passion, will, purpose in life.

And if I was going to be able to overcome it, I would have to do three things: in my heart strengthen my intigerty, in my soul/brain commit to SEVERAL goals that I was more passionate about than getting high, and in my flesh flip the power it had over on itself.

So, I went out to slay this dragon, this beast of mine, and mortify its demons, with this step by step plan to become eternally free. He asked me what I truly wanted out of life?

I started setting short term goals, and some long term goals; all things that when I thought about then, they would get me all excited just thinking I could have them in my life, instead of getting high.

He then explained to me that to strengthen my intigerty, I had to be able to say something and do it, and I would be able to believe in myself for greater things.

I started out with little things like when I dropped something, I would then say that I was going to pick it up, and then I would feeling all the confidenceI gained in myself. I found out, the harder it was to do, the more I felt my intigerty being strengthened.

After a few weeks, I was strong enough to start challenging its power over me; and I started and took down my $60-$100 a day habit, down to $20 for six days, and started completing my Sabbath days right, instead of filfulling my lusts on Saturdays, too.

I told myself that, that was what I was going to do, and I would have some for that desire waiting for me, only when I woke up on Sunday morning, I'd I lived through without causing me problems. And so I flipped its hold back onto itself, by making me work by patiently waiting to get the next morning's high.

But, if I gave myself any problems about my Saturdays, then I would forget all these steps and go for EVERY day without my lusts. I said, I would fight so hard and long that I would of wished to skip this one day, instead.

And after two weeks, I felt strong enough to add another day, making two days that I would not engage in thought or deed of my desire for that monster. Keeping the days apart from each other made it easier for me to accept this slow change. Then it turned into two days side by side, and the next week following, I added another day.

When I arrived to killing my desires six days a week, I lowered the $20 a day, down to $15, then to $10, and all the way down to $5 one day a week. Anytime I would faint, I would grab onto one of many dreams my many goals would have me imagine.

Sometimes it would try so hard to enter into my thoughts and desires, and one would not work so I would grab another, and other times it took many of them all at once to get my mind off of wanting those dead works stealing a good life and causing my death.

In three months, I had taken a $60-$100 s day habit down to $5 a week. I went another week, and I thought what the use was for when I was done. The next week, I started to anyway and felt like my stomach was going to throw up, for how it made me feel about doing it anymore of it.

The monster was dead, and I knew it for sure; no gnawing feeling for it, no compulsion, no cravings, only a sour feeling in my stomach when I even thought about it. The part of me that grew from wanting to get high, was dead along with the silence of his demons.

The same things that keep me off of drugs, is the same thing that cause people to never have had it, we do not like or think about it, we are too occupied with thinking about better things in life.


Now, eight years later, I look back and realize I took down many monsters and conquered their demons. I still have some problem with other lusts ( 😍💃, 😡☠, and 🚬), but I still have confidence that soon I will take them down, too.

Everybody is different, so the processes might vary, but the core things like igniting your hopes on things your heart truly wants, strengthening your intigerty to have self confidence, and flipping its power over to your control of what it produces will help anyone of us overcome what is trying to destroy us. God's blessings be upon you and yours; © Brother Stephen Scottt