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Chapter 1
I'm sitting here counting my blessings while learning my lessons, in the living room at this lady name Michelle house. This experience is the break though for me in the DARK WEB of the life. I had no other choice but to sacrifice... Yet I am thankful to the God of my own way of perceiving God be to me Personally. Once again I get the opportunity to become who's Will I Ams as the right hand of the ready Writer ... Author and Finisher Of the very words that I write also that of my Faith. My experience was/is the process that I was/is given a choice to enter into the MINDS of God translated Moving In New Directions Spiritually as I believe in my mind. A Positive and Negative Spiritual role that led me to this day September 14th, 2024 at 2:15 am. Today is the day that I see it for what it is...Life and Death as 2 little lovers sitting in me. I had no idea what was wrong with me and no Doctor and/or Preacher could tell me either. Nope not even my mom or dad, whom is to blame for giving me birth to this earth. Don't get it twisted I admit that I am a sinner/winner. I fell short because of my behaviors, thinking patterns, how I felt about life and the words I would say. I honestly lacked the spiritual wisdom and knowledge that I gained throughout the course of my life as my spiritual college. In which I will always remain grateful for the experiences. (The Facts of My Life is my Greatest TEACHER). My history taught me LIES that turned out to be a bunch of Bull Shit. Yet we don't get a 2nd chance to per say make a 1st impression. 2 Thy Ownself Be True: If you gonna live life you might as well live it for who you are and what you choose to believe or not believe in the present day. I found a way daily to empower myself as well as others like you, so you too can make much better spiritual choices and wiser decisions. This in itself will be beneficial especially to you and those around you... I designed this book to help you use your heart and mind just by providing you with my experiences in how I gained some spiritual powerful tools, rules, morals, and concepts. It's actually the spiritual essentials needed in order that I can share with you a spiritual healthier way of life according to your very own faith as well as your very own TRUE Story. You not allowed to make this shit up, not yet anyways... (LMAO). Once you get the purpose of this book in your spiritual awareness, only then you'll be able to make the rest up by way of Believing that you can. Honestly what this is, is what your Faith willing to do and/or don't do for you. You are the one who will have to make and stick to spiritual growth and change if you want it...At this time I would suggest that you write out a self commitment that you're willing to do whatever YOU feel, think and/or say you gonna do on a daily basis... Be rigorously HONEST with you, yourself and YOU... Especially from this point on, let it be known you are worth the truth... I feel confident about Moving In New Directions Spiritually in my true hearts desires. I am the one and only one that was hired for this JOB/ROLE as the Life Of Victorious Evangelist Jerrie Lynette BET that I know who's Will I Ams... AKA Unkle TT as my mother and father's only child. How am I not be BOTH of them? (2n1 forever). I'm going to Help Other People Everyday cause I got hope like the POPE in every way that caters to the person it helps (In a personal way)... You truthfully can not seriously afford to doubt this new route that's coming about in your spiritual new journey. My experience, strength and HOPE will help you if you're 1) willing to Seek and See the Truth and the Light of it, 2) stay open minded to some constructive suggestions and 3) basically do the new you daily process to be your best. Off top this is not a competition and/or comparison to anyone else, yet you want to challenge yourself as your only challenger. Let me ask you, do you want your life back guaranteed from your old ways of being? (the life you lived, devil spelled backwards the LIE it was/is)... If so, these are the benefits you stand to gain and access: A Mind worth having and a Life worth living... Your very own true hearts desires...and anything else you choose to have in your life that you create... FRFR Are you ready to meet your True Maker? All you have to do is look in the mirror and say hello to who you looking at or rather who's looking back at you....
How well do you know this person as the vital key influence/interest rate in yourself? What are your values, morals, concepts and/or rules that you live by? Time is of a factor so let's focus on the stages of spiritual awareness of self#1 Spiritual Precomtemplations- This is where the person has not thought about getting to know they self spiritual yet. #2 Spiritual
Contemtion- This is where the person is thinking about it but it's not sure how to proceed spiritually. #3 Spiritual Preparation- This is where the person chooses a spiritual alternative course of action to formulate a spiritual plan to get to know the self. #4 Spiritual Action - This is where the person is spiritually implementing the spiritual plan to inside and out of themselves. #5 Spiritual Maintenance - This is where the person is working spiritually to maintain a new spiritual way of life (behaviors, thinking patterns, what they say and feel) to create the new you....#6 Termination (Backslide)- This is where the person is not working towards maintaining the new way of a spiritual lifestyle...At any rate I've done them all...What's happening now can't compare to what happened already. Yet when I tell you this spiritual warfare is cunning, baffling and powerful...Means nothing unless you yourself is the one experiencing it; Only then you will know what I mean.. OF COURSE NONE OF US WANT OURSELVES LET ALONE OUR LOVED ONES TO HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS! THERE'S NO OTHER CHOICE IN THIS MATTER. It's a individual task that must be done only by the person you are. Not your mom or dad but it's you looking back at yourself reflection. It's as if it's a losing battle yet you can rest assure you are up against it. I only know these things to be true because I'm experiencing these things as all write. Carrying on, Standing looking at yourself in the mirror, what reflection do you see of yourself? Is the life you lived, devil spelled backwards worth you living? The lies that has to die or it will result in your spiritual death. Regardless of it all, be thankful that you are still here to save what life you have left and to unlock the hidden messages to open up not only your future but that of Mankind. We all was lied too everyone of us. So who's to blame or shame can only come through you, if you still not willing to be corrected. In which only A-Dam (Adam) FOOL would hate to be corrected and ther for neglected and/or protected. What's really happening here is the labor and delivery of the new birth process of being restored back to your rightful being spiritually. The process is your past, present and your future in death in 3parts Destroy Evil And The Hypocrite (within yourself) in order to Deliver Every Angel (Apostle) To Heaven or to Descend Every Atheist To Hell. The life we lived devil spelled backwards, I call the sinners pathway to hell. It's a familiar path, I see as the one we currently living what we do everyday that unfolds right before our eyes. You have knowledge of what's happening around you, Even if you are blind by eyesight you still know of what you do say think and feel day to day. All kinds of trials, tribulation and temptations come our way in which we have free will to do either good and/or evil. The choices that you have in today, truly most people are blindsided by and what it will do to you not knowing of it's deadly deceitfulness. Even food can hinder, harm or hurt you yet you have to eat. I know what it means first hand: "Man can't eat on bread alone."The value of life is based upon Materialistic things that can't give you life, but has the power to take it. The story of My Life is at any rate the same measures as others. I see how we all as individuals have been given access granted to Move In New Directions Spiritually on either side of life(before death). Daily it's renewed, yet we don't know what to expect or should I say how to manifest a better way. This exactly why it is important that you see your life matters and affects all those around you. As well as they life matter and they affect you too. Globally even though we're just 1 being individually rather your doing good or bad. Another reason to be on one Accord because evil is Every Vessel In Life 1st one who has done no wrong through the 1st stone...It would be easy to say come together as a world and accept the truth, problem solved... I OFFER YOU WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT. You will not regret coming in contact with this book, believe it or not your future depends on it as well as on what you choose to believe, do, say and what you choose to feel.... I'm sure we can agree our lives didn't happen overnight so don't expect that it will now. The purpose is to access a spiritual power greater than just your human power.( A 3rd eye sort of speak)... the holy spirit if you will to fight what you been fighting all your life..I can't live your life as you can't mine, yet we can share our story in efforts to gain a better perspective on how to have better comunication, compassion and love for others. We still can agree to disagree without prejudice or malice. Who am I to judge, vice versa? I see how Russian Roulette took course in a lot of my yesterday's without my knowledge on it physically, spiritually as well as mentally. I know that thinking the same way I used to think and expect a different result is insanity; been there done that. I should know by now that's a lie and there is NO truth in it ...
When the clock strikes 12 a.m. it's a daily reprieve. You can't live on yesterday the past life you lived devil backwards, tomorrow not promised, so today is the day that you presently living. I get so many mixed emotions when I start the process of the future. Being born, living and dying is heavy, being honest I cannot tell you exactly how it all works but I know how it is for me. Keep In Mind the goal here is an individual task that teach you to become responsible for oneself. The stages of spiritual change is a daily task that you must have in order to Move In New Direction Spiritually to use your spiritual 3rd eye which is your Brain.....Learning a new way of a spiritual as well as physical life through the way you now think, feel, what you say and do is essential to your well-being.(repeat) It's actually the power given to you that will build you a new life. When a individual is not aware of how to use these powers is where things get hectic. Everything depends on what you do as a person, but it also depends on what we all do together that affects each other, especially those that you are around. You can't let what others do make or break you, you are the maker and taker with what you have to offer. All or nothing should be your attitude just for today (very important to recognize this daily). No matter how you see it you can only learn from the past and hope better for the future. For Real For Real ask yourself what really makes sense to you? The way I saw things was that I was trapped in a lifestyle that I no longer wanted to be in. Even as of today that battle still exist. Being a part of the world and it's worldly things has its way to take a toll on you. It's taken 50 1/2 Years to get to where I'm at. After being out there in the fast life caught up in it's vicious cycle I can't expect for me to change overnight. Yet I put in a lot of hard work in the process of breaking myself down in order to build me back up. You can expect to do the same, to put in a lot of work just on this side of the fence. Believe me when I tell you I know how strong strongholds can be when you trying on willpower alone. My past caused me to be separated from my children, lost of freedom, I lost respect for myself, a lot of shame and guilt that lead to my fear of failure. Back then I didn't want no parts of being me myself or I (lmao)
Once again let's take a look at the person in the mirror? How would you truthfully describe you as who you are after reading what you have read so far? It's important to be honest with yourself because this between you and yourself. I admit how I always liked to get things done in the easy way and as quick as possible. That caused a lot of my down falls, heartaches and pains. What are some of your failures that held you down? What are some of your successes that held you other wise up? You played a part in each of the rolls you played in your life daily. It may seem as if I knew better to do better but that wasn't the case for me. I didn't realize that because I was too busy living as I used to live. Spiritually tuned out yet it's truly what taught me to see the errors of my thinking, feelings saying and doings that prepared me for the spiritual work I still have ahead of me. You personally want to keep in mind the spiritual work ahead of you that's a work in progress. You're definitely in the process and this is not a one-time event. In the past I'm sure you did what you had to do to live. Same way to live a spiritual way of life you have to do what you got to do and not look at the hurts and pains of rebirthing or should I say resurrecting your true reflection. This why I so encourage you to continue with spiritual changes. Don't set yourself up thinking that everything going to be perfect now. Either you're going to commit to spiritual change or you're not. You can't fight the battle on your own, if you could of you would of period, you need the help of others. Yes it's going to always be people that don't want to see you spiritually change but learn to love those ones from a distance. When people not happy for you when you're doing good it's only because it causes them to take a look at they self and at their situation. Remember to that in this world we're dealing with spiritual sick people.
Let's think of the better opportunities and let's focus on the challenges ahead of us as a person. You have to actually seek out the people, places and things that will help you become more spiritual wise to make spiritual better choices and decisions. If you want the story of your life to result in a successful spiritual story of glory I suggest you not be afraid to ask for help. The facts is that you are going to need all the help you get. Find you a spiritual circle or support group to become a part of and accountable for your actions. Look for mentors spiritually people that you can call and/or look up off the internet. You want to network your mind together with other people's perceptions. This gives you a better way to formulate thinking patterns that works for you. We are different in the way we process what's going on around us and how we might or might not feel about a certain situation, people, places or things. Regardless of whatever you want to truly give yourself full cooperation as well as willingness to participate by taking your life seriously and not for granted. Pay attention to what you're thinking, what you're saying, what you're feeling and what you're doing. Question yourself whether or not you should do this or that and weigh out your pros and cons. You also want to take consideration of others well-beings. This way you maintain a level of respect to yourself as well as other people in this world that you are around. Truth be told everybody needs somebody so it's okay for you to give it your all. Instant gratification can be a hindrance to you if that's what you're looking for, still yet it's going to take what it takes for you personally speaking to build your life back in spiritual growth. I tell you once again it was my thinking that kept me in bondage thinking I could get away with something. You should know already that you can't afford to think the way you used to think. Not if you expecting any kind of change spiritually. I used to tell myself the most deadliest lies, I actually was so far into denial that I believe them. I don't know how I reached the point of hopelessness spiritually sick person that I had become. Within me I knew I needed help, I tried hundreds of times to do it on my own and just didn't take seriously the suggestions or advice that was given to me. Of course I ended back the same old way and sometimes even worse. Today I know and understand a lot more because of all I've endured, good and bad. I started using crack cocaine at the age of 19 and thats when my eyes started opening up to the truth. I found myself trapped, yet I still didn't see it in the spiritual light. My understanding then was little to nothing, I had no mentors, people to look up to, spiritual advisors, hell I hadn't even heard of AA yet. My mother rest in peace really sheltered us as her children trying her best to protect us from the world around us. I even use to think that people who had money had it made. Today I know that's not necessarily the case. I was under false impressions that I didn't need help cuz I always heard my mom say there was nothing wrong with me. So when people would say something about me my mom would get mad and thought she could handle nre.( lol) Things that no kid should even think to do I was doing them at random. Even if I wanted help I didn't know who to turn to. I was afraid of rejection or how you may look at me cuz now you see I'm not perfect. One of my many flaws that kept me in dooms way. I'm sure you know that thinking the wrong perception of the truth can keep a person in defeat on a first name basis lol. What are some of the thinking patterns that you used to have that put you in denial? defeat? or even in destructive pathways? I can tell you of some of the spiritual things that help me to specially be able to overcome the life I lived devil backwards 1. is to do this thing one day at a time 2 to be honest, willing and to have an open mind 3 except constructive criticism #4 really take care of yourself by taking action 5 staying humble 6 staying in the mind frame of the greater good of all 7 stay motivated, dedicated and determine to spiritual change 8 learn from your mistakes 9 stay in the mind frame of being positive 10 WELCOME A WINNING SPIRIT. By doing these things will help you be able to endure the ways of the spiritual sick world you live in. Just because something don't sound like something you would want to do, don't be so quick to shut it down. It can come inform of a difficult person that you just don't want to be around, let alone be this person. Trust me you're not the only person who has been through what you have been through or even that you will go through. Another thing I want to make mention of is holding grudges. It's something spiritually that will keep you from humbling yourself on a daily basis. How do you tend to get in the spirit of humbleness holding grudges? This also helps to keep you in darkness where you can't see spiritually. You want to see the truth for yourself. How well are you able to deal with the truth? How do you deal with certain situations that arise at unexpected times? Suggestion to you would be to just know in your heart that if you don't want it done to you, you shouldn't be doing it.
( no exceptions to this). This is life and death that you're dealing with, you can't have one without the other. I see them as lovers just like Adam and Eve or Romeo and Juliet
Again reflect back on what you've already read, how do you see where your thinking as well as your behavior patterns have grown or where they need improvement? You want to fight the battle according to what you now have come to believe. I'll say this again it's up to you to see how important it is for you to do this on a daily basis this way you daily aware of what's happening around you and be of help working towards the greater good for all lives that matter. Remember your spiritual living depends upon your spiritual maintenance each day. Trust me you do not want to slip so far back that you want to give up or feel like a failure. I felt like I was in kindergarten again and that I needed baby food all over. I mentioned this to you because it actually held me back a lot because of my outer image, which almost took me out on several occasions. What kept me alive was the process of learning to deal with the life I have been given in a spiritual way that I can understand for myself. How can the story of your life be helpful to you as well as to others? Everything depends on how you perceive things to be to you that as well as what you choose to say, do and feel as we've discussed. You can't allow what others do control what you do therefore giving your responsibility and or power over to that person place or thing. Keep In Mind how important it is to start each day off in the right direction. Become accustomed to daily reflections. If you haven't already you need to get over the fact that not you or me or anybody else for that matters can do anything about what already happened. Tomorrow has yet to come so this is why we stay focused on today. (repeat). What are you doing today and are you doing what needs to be done? If at any time you see yourself back sliding or drifting back into the life he lived remind yourself of the present day which you are still among the living. You're always going to remain a work in progress, with that being said I see no reason not to end this chapter. Before I do, how was chapter 1 helpful to you personally speaking? or not.....
© Love Unkle TT Jerrie
I'm sitting here counting my blessings while learning my lessons, in the living room at this lady name Michelle house. This experience is the break though for me in the DARK WEB of the life. I had no other choice but to sacrifice... Yet I am thankful to the God of my own way of perceiving God be to me Personally. Once again I get the opportunity to become who's Will I Ams as the right hand of the ready Writer ... Author and Finisher Of the very words that I write also that of my Faith. My experience was/is the process that I was/is given a choice to enter into the MINDS of God translated Moving In New Directions Spiritually as I believe in my mind. A Positive and Negative Spiritual role that led me to this day September 14th, 2024 at 2:15 am. Today is the day that I see it for what it is...Life and Death as 2 little lovers sitting in me. I had no idea what was wrong with me and no Doctor and/or Preacher could tell me either. Nope not even my mom or dad, whom is to blame for giving me birth to this earth. Don't get it twisted I admit that I am a sinner/winner. I fell short because of my behaviors, thinking patterns, how I felt about life and the words I would say. I honestly lacked the spiritual wisdom and knowledge that I gained throughout the course of my life as my spiritual college. In which I will always remain grateful for the experiences. (The Facts of My Life is my Greatest TEACHER). My history taught me LIES that turned out to be a bunch of Bull Shit. Yet we don't get a 2nd chance to per say make a 1st impression. 2 Thy Ownself Be True: If you gonna live life you might as well live it for who you are and what you choose to believe or not believe in the present day. I found a way daily to empower myself as well as others like you, so you too can make much better spiritual choices and wiser decisions. This in itself will be beneficial especially to you and those around you... I designed this book to help you use your heart and mind just by providing you with my experiences in how I gained some spiritual powerful tools, rules, morals, and concepts. It's actually the spiritual essentials needed in order that I can share with you a spiritual healthier way of life according to your very own faith as well as your very own TRUE Story. You not allowed to make this shit up, not yet anyways... (LMAO). Once you get the purpose of this book in your spiritual awareness, only then you'll be able to make the rest up by way of Believing that you can. Honestly what this is, is what your Faith willing to do and/or don't do for you. You are the one who will have to make and stick to spiritual growth and change if you want it...At this time I would suggest that you write out a self commitment that you're willing to do whatever YOU feel, think and/or say you gonna do on a daily basis... Be rigorously HONEST with you, yourself and YOU... Especially from this point on, let it be known you are worth the truth... I feel confident about Moving In New Directions Spiritually in my true hearts desires. I am the one and only one that was hired for this JOB/ROLE as the Life Of Victorious Evangelist Jerrie Lynette BET that I know who's Will I Ams... AKA Unkle TT as my mother and father's only child. How am I not be BOTH of them? (2n1 forever). I'm going to Help Other People Everyday cause I got hope like the POPE in every way that caters to the person it helps (In a personal way)... You truthfully can not seriously afford to doubt this new route that's coming about in your spiritual new journey. My experience, strength and HOPE will help you if you're 1) willing to Seek and See the Truth and the Light of it, 2) stay open minded to some constructive suggestions and 3) basically do the new you daily process to be your best. Off top this is not a competition and/or comparison to anyone else, yet you want to challenge yourself as your only challenger. Let me ask you, do you want your life back guaranteed from your old ways of being? (the life you lived, devil spelled backwards the LIE it was/is)... If so, these are the benefits you stand to gain and access: A Mind worth having and a Life worth living... Your very own true hearts desires...and anything else you choose to have in your life that you create... FRFR Are you ready to meet your True Maker? All you have to do is look in the mirror and say hello to who you looking at or rather who's looking back at you....
How well do you know this person as the vital key influence/interest rate in yourself? What are your values, morals, concepts and/or rules that you live by? Time is of a factor so let's focus on the stages of spiritual awareness of self#1 Spiritual Precomtemplations- This is where the person has not thought about getting to know they self spiritual yet. #2 Spiritual
Contemtion- This is where the person is thinking about it but it's not sure how to proceed spiritually. #3 Spiritual Preparation- This is where the person chooses a spiritual alternative course of action to formulate a spiritual plan to get to know the self. #4 Spiritual Action - This is where the person is spiritually implementing the spiritual plan to inside and out of themselves. #5 Spiritual Maintenance - This is where the person is working spiritually to maintain a new spiritual way of life (behaviors, thinking patterns, what they say and feel) to create the new you....#6 Termination (Backslide)- This is where the person is not working towards maintaining the new way of a spiritual lifestyle...At any rate I've done them all...What's happening now can't compare to what happened already. Yet when I tell you this spiritual warfare is cunning, baffling and powerful...Means nothing unless you yourself is the one experiencing it; Only then you will know what I mean.. OF COURSE NONE OF US WANT OURSELVES LET ALONE OUR LOVED ONES TO HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS! THERE'S NO OTHER CHOICE IN THIS MATTER. It's a individual task that must be done only by the person you are. Not your mom or dad but it's you looking back at yourself reflection. It's as if it's a losing battle yet you can rest assure you are up against it. I only know these things to be true because I'm experiencing these things as all write. Carrying on, Standing looking at yourself in the mirror, what reflection do you see of yourself? Is the life you lived, devil spelled backwards worth you living? The lies that has to die or it will result in your spiritual death. Regardless of it all, be thankful that you are still here to save what life you have left and to unlock the hidden messages to open up not only your future but that of Mankind. We all was lied too everyone of us. So who's to blame or shame can only come through you, if you still not willing to be corrected. In which only A-Dam (Adam) FOOL would hate to be corrected and ther for neglected and/or protected. What's really happening here is the labor and delivery of the new birth process of being restored back to your rightful being spiritually. The process is your past, present and your future in death in 3parts Destroy Evil And The Hypocrite (within yourself) in order to Deliver Every Angel (Apostle) To Heaven or to Descend Every Atheist To Hell. The life we lived devil spelled backwards, I call the sinners pathway to hell. It's a familiar path, I see as the one we currently living what we do everyday that unfolds right before our eyes. You have knowledge of what's happening around you, Even if you are blind by eyesight you still know of what you do say think and feel day to day. All kinds of trials, tribulation and temptations come our way in which we have free will to do either good and/or evil. The choices that you have in today, truly most people are blindsided by and what it will do to you not knowing of it's deadly deceitfulness. Even food can hinder, harm or hurt you yet you have to eat. I know what it means first hand: "Man can't eat on bread alone."The value of life is based upon Materialistic things that can't give you life, but has the power to take it. The story of My Life is at any rate the same measures as others. I see how we all as individuals have been given access granted to Move In New Directions Spiritually on either side of life(before death). Daily it's renewed, yet we don't know what to expect or should I say how to manifest a better way. This exactly why it is important that you see your life matters and affects all those around you. As well as they life matter and they affect you too. Globally even though we're just 1 being individually rather your doing good or bad. Another reason to be on one Accord because evil is Every Vessel In Life 1st one who has done no wrong through the 1st stone...It would be easy to say come together as a world and accept the truth, problem solved... I OFFER YOU WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT. You will not regret coming in contact with this book, believe it or not your future depends on it as well as on what you choose to believe, do, say and what you choose to feel.... I'm sure we can agree our lives didn't happen overnight so don't expect that it will now. The purpose is to access a spiritual power greater than just your human power.( A 3rd eye sort of speak)... the holy spirit if you will to fight what you been fighting all your life..I can't live your life as you can't mine, yet we can share our story in efforts to gain a better perspective on how to have better comunication, compassion and love for others. We still can agree to disagree without prejudice or malice. Who am I to judge, vice versa? I see how Russian Roulette took course in a lot of my yesterday's without my knowledge on it physically, spiritually as well as mentally. I know that thinking the same way I used to think and expect a different result is insanity; been there done that. I should know by now that's a lie and there is NO truth in it ...
When the clock strikes 12 a.m. it's a daily reprieve. You can't live on yesterday the past life you lived devil backwards, tomorrow not promised, so today is the day that you presently living. I get so many mixed emotions when I start the process of the future. Being born, living and dying is heavy, being honest I cannot tell you exactly how it all works but I know how it is for me. Keep In Mind the goal here is an individual task that teach you to become responsible for oneself. The stages of spiritual change is a daily task that you must have in order to Move In New Direction Spiritually to use your spiritual 3rd eye which is your Brain.....Learning a new way of a spiritual as well as physical life through the way you now think, feel, what you say and do is essential to your well-being.(repeat) It's actually the power given to you that will build you a new life. When a individual is not aware of how to use these powers is where things get hectic. Everything depends on what you do as a person, but it also depends on what we all do together that affects each other, especially those that you are around. You can't let what others do make or break you, you are the maker and taker with what you have to offer. All or nothing should be your attitude just for today (very important to recognize this daily). No matter how you see it you can only learn from the past and hope better for the future. For Real For Real ask yourself what really makes sense to you? The way I saw things was that I was trapped in a lifestyle that I no longer wanted to be in. Even as of today that battle still exist. Being a part of the world and it's worldly things has its way to take a toll on you. It's taken 50 1/2 Years to get to where I'm at. After being out there in the fast life caught up in it's vicious cycle I can't expect for me to change overnight. Yet I put in a lot of hard work in the process of breaking myself down in order to build me back up. You can expect to do the same, to put in a lot of work just on this side of the fence. Believe me when I tell you I know how strong strongholds can be when you trying on willpower alone. My past caused me to be separated from my children, lost of freedom, I lost respect for myself, a lot of shame and guilt that lead to my fear of failure. Back then I didn't want no parts of being me myself or I (lmao)
Once again let's take a look at the person in the mirror? How would you truthfully describe you as who you are after reading what you have read so far? It's important to be honest with yourself because this between you and yourself. I admit how I always liked to get things done in the easy way and as quick as possible. That caused a lot of my down falls, heartaches and pains. What are some of your failures that held you down? What are some of your successes that held you other wise up? You played a part in each of the rolls you played in your life daily. It may seem as if I knew better to do better but that wasn't the case for me. I didn't realize that because I was too busy living as I used to live. Spiritually tuned out yet it's truly what taught me to see the errors of my thinking, feelings saying and doings that prepared me for the spiritual work I still have ahead of me. You personally want to keep in mind the spiritual work ahead of you that's a work in progress. You're definitely in the process and this is not a one-time event. In the past I'm sure you did what you had to do to live. Same way to live a spiritual way of life you have to do what you got to do and not look at the hurts and pains of rebirthing or should I say resurrecting your true reflection. This why I so encourage you to continue with spiritual changes. Don't set yourself up thinking that everything going to be perfect now. Either you're going to commit to spiritual change or you're not. You can't fight the battle on your own, if you could of you would of period, you need the help of others. Yes it's going to always be people that don't want to see you spiritually change but learn to love those ones from a distance. When people not happy for you when you're doing good it's only because it causes them to take a look at they self and at their situation. Remember to that in this world we're dealing with spiritual sick people.
Let's think of the better opportunities and let's focus on the challenges ahead of us as a person. You have to actually seek out the people, places and things that will help you become more spiritual wise to make spiritual better choices and decisions. If you want the story of your life to result in a successful spiritual story of glory I suggest you not be afraid to ask for help. The facts is that you are going to need all the help you get. Find you a spiritual circle or support group to become a part of and accountable for your actions. Look for mentors spiritually people that you can call and/or look up off the internet. You want to network your mind together with other people's perceptions. This gives you a better way to formulate thinking patterns that works for you. We are different in the way we process what's going on around us and how we might or might not feel about a certain situation, people, places or things. Regardless of whatever you want to truly give yourself full cooperation as well as willingness to participate by taking your life seriously and not for granted. Pay attention to what you're thinking, what you're saying, what you're feeling and what you're doing. Question yourself whether or not you should do this or that and weigh out your pros and cons. You also want to take consideration of others well-beings. This way you maintain a level of respect to yourself as well as other people in this world that you are around. Truth be told everybody needs somebody so it's okay for you to give it your all. Instant gratification can be a hindrance to you if that's what you're looking for, still yet it's going to take what it takes for you personally speaking to build your life back in spiritual growth. I tell you once again it was my thinking that kept me in bondage thinking I could get away with something. You should know already that you can't afford to think the way you used to think. Not if you expecting any kind of change spiritually. I used to tell myself the most deadliest lies, I actually was so far into denial that I believe them. I don't know how I reached the point of hopelessness spiritually sick person that I had become. Within me I knew I needed help, I tried hundreds of times to do it on my own and just didn't take seriously the suggestions or advice that was given to me. Of course I ended back the same old way and sometimes even worse. Today I know and understand a lot more because of all I've endured, good and bad. I started using crack cocaine at the age of 19 and thats when my eyes started opening up to the truth. I found myself trapped, yet I still didn't see it in the spiritual light. My understanding then was little to nothing, I had no mentors, people to look up to, spiritual advisors, hell I hadn't even heard of AA yet. My mother rest in peace really sheltered us as her children trying her best to protect us from the world around us. I even use to think that people who had money had it made. Today I know that's not necessarily the case. I was under false impressions that I didn't need help cuz I always heard my mom say there was nothing wrong with me. So when people would say something about me my mom would get mad and thought she could handle nre.( lol) Things that no kid should even think to do I was doing them at random. Even if I wanted help I didn't know who to turn to. I was afraid of rejection or how you may look at me cuz now you see I'm not perfect. One of my many flaws that kept me in dooms way. I'm sure you know that thinking the wrong perception of the truth can keep a person in defeat on a first name basis lol. What are some of the thinking patterns that you used to have that put you in denial? defeat? or even in destructive pathways? I can tell you of some of the spiritual things that help me to specially be able to overcome the life I lived devil backwards 1. is to do this thing one day at a time 2 to be honest, willing and to have an open mind 3 except constructive criticism #4 really take care of yourself by taking action 5 staying humble 6 staying in the mind frame of the greater good of all 7 stay motivated, dedicated and determine to spiritual change 8 learn from your mistakes 9 stay in the mind frame of being positive 10 WELCOME A WINNING SPIRIT. By doing these things will help you be able to endure the ways of the spiritual sick world you live in. Just because something don't sound like something you would want to do, don't be so quick to shut it down. It can come inform of a difficult person that you just don't want to be around, let alone be this person. Trust me you're not the only person who has been through what you have been through or even that you will go through. Another thing I want to make mention of is holding grudges. It's something spiritually that will keep you from humbling yourself on a daily basis. How do you tend to get in the spirit of humbleness holding grudges? This also helps to keep you in darkness where you can't see spiritually. You want to see the truth for yourself. How well are you able to deal with the truth? How do you deal with certain situations that arise at unexpected times? Suggestion to you would be to just know in your heart that if you don't want it done to you, you shouldn't be doing it.
( no exceptions to this). This is life and death that you're dealing with, you can't have one without the other. I see them as lovers just like Adam and Eve or Romeo and Juliet
Again reflect back on what you've already read, how do you see where your thinking as well as your behavior patterns have grown or where they need improvement? You want to fight the battle according to what you now have come to believe. I'll say this again it's up to you to see how important it is for you to do this on a daily basis this way you daily aware of what's happening around you and be of help working towards the greater good for all lives that matter. Remember your spiritual living depends upon your spiritual maintenance each day. Trust me you do not want to slip so far back that you want to give up or feel like a failure. I felt like I was in kindergarten again and that I needed baby food all over. I mentioned this to you because it actually held me back a lot because of my outer image, which almost took me out on several occasions. What kept me alive was the process of learning to deal with the life I have been given in a spiritual way that I can understand for myself. How can the story of your life be helpful to you as well as to others? Everything depends on how you perceive things to be to you that as well as what you choose to say, do and feel as we've discussed. You can't allow what others do control what you do therefore giving your responsibility and or power over to that person place or thing. Keep In Mind how important it is to start each day off in the right direction. Become accustomed to daily reflections. If you haven't already you need to get over the fact that not you or me or anybody else for that matters can do anything about what already happened. Tomorrow has yet to come so this is why we stay focused on today. (repeat). What are you doing today and are you doing what needs to be done? If at any time you see yourself back sliding or drifting back into the life he lived remind yourself of the present day which you are still among the living. You're always going to remain a work in progress, with that being said I see no reason not to end this chapter. Before I do, how was chapter 1 helpful to you personally speaking? or not.....
© Love Unkle TT Jerrie
