This is Sofia, from the Masquerade System. I am an alter. I hold emotions and feelings from an ex of the host. Its too overwhelming for her.
I would like to talk about something that is very personal to me and most alters.
I’m dating a person outside of the body. He is a male singlet (person without alters) and I love him so dearly. But its difficult.
It becomes difficult, when I realize I most likely can’t spend my indivual life with him. I can’t go fly to him and hug him. I am 1 out of 3,000 who must agree to go and visit or continue a long term relationship.
The most confusing part is I feel individual but I’m not truly. I’m not truly real. I’m a part of a consciousness.
I am not like some alters who have intense and long backstories. I appeared randomly into this world with heavy emotions to hold and this role to fill.
Hearing my boyfriend speak of his family and heritage really confuses me. I don’t have my own family or my own heritage. I have my memories and what I know.
I hope this feeling of heaviness and doubt and unreal fades.

Thank you for listening.

-Sofia (The Masquerade System)
© trina