Life is sometimes a long business the summers are too hot and the winters are too cold but some of us live through it every year. It was the beginning of summer and although August is very hot Joiner didn't want to dress too provocatively.
She didn't want her shorts and dresses too short. Short was ok for some but she wanted her attractions to be her not the way she dressed. The late evenings sitting out on the porch reminded her of when she was very young without a care in the world.
The house phone rang hello, are you ready to finish our discussion the voice said.
How did you get my number she asked, why are you calling me. Joiner don't get upset I got it out of Sally's cell I want to talk to you.
I know some guys don't understand this but your old lady wouldn't want you calling me.
I know she isn't there or you wouldn't be calling me. No she's gone to see her other man don't play crazy Joiner everybody knows she's seeing Kelvin even me.
Last night you said that I stick in your mind what did you mean Paul asked.
When we first met you were somewhat different. See I could see that you were hurt and hiding but I could feel the love inside of you. I could feel what you wanted and that that you had to give but now. Then you could have had the cake and icecream too but you got big headed and it's been growing every since. You wanted love then Paul you know the real stuff so you got with Val but I don't understand why.
You know you run a good game yeah I'm attracted to you but I see you like I see any other man. See i don't want a man that disrespects women. If a man disrespect one woman why not 2 or all. You're hard to figure out so I just stop figuring you know.
I'm not going to disregard my needs sacrificing everything that I have to give for a roll in the hay. What you mean her other man
Joiner said. Don't change the subject what you mean a roll in the hay. I mean it's ok to flirt with a man with like you but get serious about no. I want to ask you something just straight out of the blue she said.
Come spend the weekend with me.
You can't can ya, that's what I mean.
My needs Paul are just important as yours.
My wants has as much value as the attention that you give to another woman. See Val does what she want and you're sleeping with anybody you want but I'm not like that.
I want to be able to talk to you anytime I want be with you everywhere. See I know that now people are stealing time together in the malls. An hour here and there in some out of the way hotel til the next time they can. Stealing love is good for a while but that's lust Paul I don't want lust. So I stopped
Everything had gotten quite noone was saying anything but she could almost hear his thoughts. I'm getting older I'm an elder now I respect my age it was hard getting to this age. But Paul I like it no I love my age. Things that I use to take for granted like love making and who I'm making love to is much more important to me.
Everything has enhanced, intenseafied gotten better and I want my love returned or at least matched can you understand that he asked him. You got what you want you got Val you ain't going nowhere. It doesn't work for me anymore not because I'm scared or hurt I just realized that I'm not getting back what I give.
I need to be able to be able.
Right then Val walked in who you talking to baby she asked Paul. Nobody Joiner said.
Goodnight Paul she said and hung up.

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