I don't know anything about commitments. That's the main reason for my failed relationships.
Even when we do communicate, I still don't know what to talk about without making things so unbearably awkward between us.
I know my emotions when I am certain it's "I am in love" moment. But to act it out, to act all lovey-dovey with you...I can't.
You see, there's an invisible chain that kept me chained to this prison cell I'm in. I've tried to fly away - but honey, this is all an illusion.
I envied your freedom.
I envied the person who gets to kiss you and sweep you off your feet.
Who am I kidding anyway? I've cried my heart out for this pointless yearning that will never blossoms.
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