Have you ever felt pain?
Not just any kind of pain that goes away in a little while but the kind that we live with for a long time.
The kind that damages us and make us question everything we stand for and believe in.
The kind of pain we never forget because it almost destroyed us, it makes us feel so empty we go around crazy trying to fill the void with anything, anything at all. We get so hungry that nothing we eat fill us up, because it's not that we are truly hungry but the hurt is eating us up.
Nothing we do stops it and with time we have no choice but to succumb to it's unending brutality and emotional turture. We let it eat us so deep it swallows us up, then what we are left with is the shadow of ourselves. we can't cry nor shout to feel better, we don't even have the strength to...
It takes a lot of strong will to not lose our minds from all the heartaches and headaches. And because we are so vulnerable, we are exposed to a lot of crazy ideas and thoughts trying to feed on our minds and sanity, ranging from guilt to regrets...
I can recognize this pain since I have felt it, I know they say "pain makes us feel alive" but I pray I never get to feel it again, this pain a mother feels when she loses her child...
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