Trigger warning: Toxic relationships, manipulation/gaslighting, homophobia, mental abuse, suicidal thoughts, self harm, and trauma.

I need to go over things so I can clear my mind.

So, it started when you and *** started to ignore me one day. I tried to talk to you like any other day, but you didn't bother looking at me and just gave a really curt response. I tried to show you something funny to get your attention, but all you did was fake a laugh. I decided to leave you alone after that because maybe you were busy and I was being annoying since it was very unusual for you to act that way. Innocent enough. I assumed I was just overthinking things until the next day. Same place and time. You immediately ran to *** without even looking at me. started cuddling with them. I remembered the times we were in a romantic relationship and I wanted to cuddle and you always said no because you were worried people would notice. We later broke up because you found out you were aromantic and never had feelings for me. You weren't heartbroken at all. you expected me to just be fine with it. All that, yet now, here in a global pandemic, you snuggle someone you have no romantic feelings for in a crowded area? I see you two snuggle almost daily. I chalked this up to be being jealous and, yet again, I gave you the benefit of the doubt. Than came another day and you were swerving away from me. *** glaring at me. You both whisper things while looking at me from afar. I'm too nervous to confront you because, as you know, I have a phobia of confrontation due to...