I have gotten this clarity about myself - I have to reach my potential - there is no 2nd way. Even if I make unlimited money, find my soulmate/love of my life/etc - still I know I will be unhappy - because I didn't reach my potential - this awareness will kill me.

It's like a hunger that needs to be fed, else it will prey on me.

I always knew something like this existed within me - and I was always scared of it - and so I always neglected it and tried to run away from it - I have only ended up...