Now when i am writing this tears are comming out of my eyes. I want to cry ,i want to forget and finally i want to erase the day i killed my mom.

Though it happened a long time ago but the wound is still fresh in my heart. This is a secret between God and me.

Whenever i think about it i go to a far away place to weep loudly where no body could see him ....if they see me
they would suspect me of something.

My mom was a charming lady of 45
she was short in height.
a long nose
always wearing silver bracelets

Daddy died when i was five years old.
people say he was a horrible man with long beard and was a smuggler.

one day while trying to cross the border
was shot by police and he died on the spot.

Now only two of us lived together.
My maternal uncle would visit us who was partner of my daddy.
but he too died some years back.

Me and my mom lived a happy life within the four walls of house

then suddenly oneday everything changed shattered our life into fragments

There was a man who would visit our house each time i left.

I tried to warn my mom but she was hidding something from me.

Everytime i saw him comming. i would become angry extremely disturbed.

Once i intended to kill him.

It was the night of 16 december i was with my friends for shopping to
market

It began to rain heavily when i was above to reach my house.

i was wet and caught cold.

as soon as i reached outside my house.

I saw a car standing outside my house
it was black in color. thousand questions were comming to my mind.
my heart began to beat fastly.
Evil thoughts began to born within my observation of car.

I secretly entered the house
and what i saw was very emotional burst for me.
this sight changed my life negatively

it was the same man comming to our house
he was hugging my mom
and gave a packet of money to mom

i knocked my shoe against floor
they saw me and began to faint.
the color of the man changed
.He was seeing in my eyes.

He left the place without saying anything thing.

I asked mom who he was but not a word
from mom.
i had a hot talk with mom .i even pulled her hair and slapped her
but she was silent.

i understood the matter that the man was
having affair with my mom.

that night i was not able to sleep.
like an injured soldier thinking about war having no peace in his life not even for a moment.

It was midnight ,these evil thoughts made me sleepless.
i went to kitchen for water.

as i finished the drink. i saw a sharp knife in kitchen. very sharp and shinning.
Mom had been using this all the time
but now it was my turn.

i went to her room slowly and slowly
she was in a peaceful sleep Ah..
what an innocent face.
but i could only saw the man

i used the knife against her throat so fastly that she died in a moment
without even struggle.


That rubbish packet was also
on the table i took the pack and tore it.
along with large sum of money
a slip was there something was written on it.

"DEAR SISTER,POLICE THINKS
I AM DEAD BUT NOW ITS VERY
RISKY FOR ME TO COME DAILY.
MY NEPHEW SHOULD NOT THINK ANYTHING WRONG ABOUT US. I WILL BE SENDING YOU THE MONEY BUT I WILL NOT COME NOW ..ONLY AFTER A LONG TIME.

It was my dead uncle's note who was not
dead at all.

i kept looking at the deadbody of my mom without saying a word. my lips wre frozen.
upto sunrise i sat on the bed talking with my mom.

"mom i m sorry....
please mom i m soo sorry.

i m ssooo sorry mom please forgive me
😥😥😥"