I'm afraid of what's to come in the future
The past gone, don't know how to live in the present
The path before me is blurred and I have no another
I walk blinded in fear, my steps all hesitant
My breath incalculable, my memories spinning in reels
This, for me is too overwhelming, I can't handle these feels

Suggestions and harsh enforced guidance did me no good either
I am growing internally, day by day, every second within bitter
While everyone around me, breathing and existing effortlessly
I wander on earth, questioning and debating my gift of life constantly

I want to get back in the game but, I am lost somehow
I manage scraps of achievement yet, stagnancy reigns supreme for now
I am a troubled Soul, floating around in existential limbo
I am eternally seeking guidance in every dead end, don't know how far I will go

So I ask myself, time and again when faced with defeat and in pain, Is this all worth it?
No answer but, a feeling of phantom comfort overtakes me and hope's candle is lit.

Alas! I have surrendered to the future unknown
Life is for living, I've been told, all the rules I don't have to abide by, you know

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