People please stop giving instructions on, "How to destroy a narcissist."!

If you give them a taste of their own medicine, they feed off of it to keep fighting with you, and such is riddled with their ways of trying to turn you into one of them... for as long as you keep exchanging in returning giving an eye for an eye.

So...

So don't be surprised if they say, "You game!", and then you game, and you get diagnosed with gaming disorder...

If you see a sign that says, "Hurry, big mattress sale. You have to come before the sale ends soon!". Do you think, "I have a choice.", or do you follow the signs instructions, repeatedly advertised to be put in your face again and again, which has wording in it that practically demands you go check out this sale and buy buy buy now?.

I'm living proof of what can happen if eye for an eye keeps being exchanged back and forth...

Having the eyes to see everything for what it is is difficult when delusions confusions lies and deceptions are often presented as candy to trick you...

I can't fathom loving that person I use to swear to cherish and love...

So much energy put into defending myself took me from being the loving person I wanted to be...

They say I was hurting them first...

I remember judging them...
If they didn't like the way I treated them why didn't they just walk away?
Why did they keep calling me again?
Then again...
Why did I keep calling them again too?

No, they want to destroy me or make me destroy myself...
Maybe they think the same about me though...

I never did what I did with the intent to destroy that person.

I did what I did because I was insisting (sometimes begging) I had to be respected and if...
"If I give it another chance, I insist to please not do that messed up thing (that may have been claimed is an innocent mistake...) again.

I remember I was taught I set standards on what kind of people I was okay with being around...
So sometimes I was judgemental in my demeanor instead of...

So...

Now being forced to defend myself and being confused about who's right or wrong because the war has gone on for so long?
At this point I don't want to care who started it, I just want peace...

According to the other party, they want peace but they eventually repeat asking me to submit to sacrificing myself to be beat up, have attempted murder done on me they say their family wants to carry...