Silence is deadly and I suppose I never thought much about what that meant. But it's the silent thoughts that will kill you; that will destroy you until you are nothing but an empty shell. Late at night my mind creeps to those silent thought that I wish I didn't have. But I am tired, tired of silencing those thoughts. Those thoughts are taking over so it's time to light a candle, if only on these pages, to expose those thoughts and make them no longer lethal. I am a women, a mother who needs to be more than that. I need you to see me as a wife, a teacher, a friend. Someone who matters, who isnt defined by a label. Hear my voice and embrace who I am. I have to stop hiding the parts of me I don't want you to see. I have to show you all of me, and I feel exposed but in a way, it's liberating. Post natal depression is not my shame; it is my experience. the darkness no longer covers me. I am free now because it is no longer deadly silent.