How do I even start.
Here goes nothing

So being the way I am.Strolling around like nothing else matter staring at my phone so tired and weary with all the responsibilities on my shoulder.Yet trying this fantasy reel world wheee everthing seems so fine,trying my best to showcase Im happy and Im cool.Not exactly a lie but sometimes just way to overwhelm.Posting stuff ,writing jams just expressing my thoughts.As I kept posting line after lines without a care in the world ..she kept filling them more like ruining them.To say I was simply annoyed would be an understatement..ugh..the urge to know why is this person ruining them all along.Eventually with days got so busy with work,no time to write,no time to breathe..like not literally... sarcastically..Anyways moving on..I used to post lines like anything...heard people calling me Im just a silly girl ...well,they weren't wrong.. either way that person is the most annoying person in my life.. though..well you know how it works..I tried my best cheering up people I met along the way..no one really knew what maybe I'm going through...well this girl...no idea how..always when I post the lines...something sad..ruined it..like left and right.Seriously by this time ,this girl really got on my nerves...as much as I wanted to call out for her behaviour..I rather ignore it..was my motto..It didnt last long..all of a sudden the news that the certain app is gonna shut down forever..Well that was a mere reality check..good things come to an end..and when I thought it was end of the story.A new app came in light...it was never the same..who cares though..I joined for fun..So this girl was also a part of it and I didn't really know at start..since it's a new app and new group well why not introduce...that's when I knew it was SHE ..who ruined my lines ..All my maturity vanished and just like a silly child...I confronted her...to my surprise she did remember me ..well what a start.. eventually we started chatting...and she seemed to be cold hearted lol...that's what I thought at start..hey..don't judge me..I'm just a human..I told my other good friend about her..well what the other good friend said...it's a secret..shuu...so then with time this girl and me we kinda got to know each other...I guess she matched my vibe ..at first we were just like formal hi hello bye..which I would prefer just fine.Just being happy ,being myself rather than a log working day and night.Gradually we shared our issues,jokes, gossips and then slow by slow she broke my barrier..that I raised and kept so strong.It took me years to understand this that even your years friendship can fade away..and so the best was to be friendly with all but never close to any.This girl she broke my barrier and broke it so bad..that now she is my best friend..she helped me find the inner me that I lost in this years.The phase that faded away like ugh..I'm no more teens,whats with the calls ..and constant texts.All my life I have been struggling to met ends...make my family proud..not giving a thought..how should I live forself..Don't get me wrong..I did have friends from childhood and they were all great but at some point ...things and circumstances change...it's not the person but the situation.Focussing on positivity I decided never again to be this way..Well God had different plans..he gave me three people in my life..that without one of them..I'd surely collapse.Im blessed.. with the best.I was never a open person, prefer to be a silent observer and used to open up only to people that I felt comfy with.But this girl really changed me,the two best people I met and hopefully I'll meet them soon.They are my lifeline for eternity.

P.S:-Doesnt matter anyone likes it or not..I just had to write it down..cause now without them by my side..I just go insane 😔 at times..I miss you'll besties 🥺

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