My life hasn't always been the greatest, I had a hard time focusing on School and thought that hanging out with my friends and getting into trouble was the best solution for me, well I was wrong. As I walk down the tiny narrow hallway that's not even remotely big enough to fit three or more people, there stood my locker. Away from the rest, now I didn't really see myself as an outcast persay. I would actually come to terms with knowing that I was invisible. People knew I was there but had no acknowledgement of me at all. Sitting down in front of my locker, I'm contemplating; really trying to grasp onto that concept as to why I would feel this way. I always had a hard time opening up, especially to my staff and peers. So I would sit alone and just become a mute; I figured, if nobody is wanting to actually talk with me then I shall make myself silent as well. Consider it a self-directed silent treatment, if you will. I didn't have many friends, I would sit in the way back of the classroom so nobody would have to deal with me, or even bother to look my way. But that didn't stop me, I graduated class of 2013; I finally made it, and you know what that was the biggest achievement I could not be prouder of myself for. I have a long history and many stories to tell. Growing up, when you don't have friends or anyone to talk to, hang out with, be accompanied by them; you kind of just start socializing with the voices in your head, that's exactly what happened to me. I was devastated to the point of no return, I thought to myself that I would not even accomplish this. This was my goal, my dream, to graduate and make myself proud. Now I'm all graduated and life has just became more and more boring. I would sit in the back of the class, that way I could see the board better. My eye sight hasn't been all that great and so it was hard for my eyes to focus while in front of the class; when the teacher finally heeded to my desperate call for help, she allowed me to move to the back and that's where I was for the rest of my High School days. I didn't make friends, I wasn't there to make friends. I was there to get my work done and graduate, and I did it.
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