There are some things that are hard to accept. Even if you lie to yourself it doesn't change the fact that you are just hiding the truth. One of the hardes things to except is being alone in a big world. Being alone makes you feel lonely When things go wrong don't you don't always need to repair everything. Sometimes leave it alone. If time doesn't heal things then just move on to the next thing.
Even if everything goes wrong don't give up. Just move on and be happy. Because even if everyone gives up on you... You have to be there for yourself. Try loving yourself before someone else. If you can't love yourself others can't either.
While watching To the beautiful you, I realized why you fail... It was not because you are less brilliant than them. But because of the fact that sometimes you never want to succeed, you just want to beat them. We get things we truly want and deserve. But if you want to something just because you don't want others to have it then you'll never get it. Your life is beautiful. Make sure you live your life to beautifully.