“Some days are just bad days, that’s all. You have to experience sadness to know happiness, and I remind myself that not every day is going to be a good day. That’s just the way it is!”
– Dita Von Teese

My life has been crazy, I just turned 34 on September 4th. My dad passed away on December 7th 1998, I was only like 9 or 10 years old at the time. my brother was in prison for 7 years of his life. He was struggling with things and he committed suicide on August 5 2014. I had my daughter on July 25 2012. I was a single mother living with my mom. I took care of my mom, she had gotten sick one day and I had to call 911 when we got to the hospital they told us her kidneys were failing and that she needed to be put on dialysis. she started going 3 days a week. I knew I had to take care of her so I did I made sure bills were paid, went to doctor appointments with her and everything. My mom had lost a lot of weight. but I was there too take care of her. January 2 or 3rd 2020 it was on a Friday my mom got up and she was fine, (my mom went to dialysis on Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays) she was getting ready for dialysis we were talking and laughing. I would get up with her to wait on her ride to take her to dialysis. I walked her out to the van and she left to dialysis. Later on that day I called her too see what she wanted to eat when she got home, she told me whatever I make she’ll eat. she sounded fine. Well my mom never came home that day, it was getting later and later so I called her driver and he told me she never called to say she was ready. he told me he would call the lady at the front desk and call me back. I called my mom over 20 times no answer. I was really worried at this point. 15 minutes later I get a call back from the driver he said my mom was in the hospital that they told him she died while she was getting her dialysis treatment but they brought her back to life within 6 minutes and that she was having multiple strokes. I got up there to the hospital too see my mom. My mom was in the hospital for a few days and on January 7 2020 she passed away. I didn’t know what I was going to do, my daughter took it hard she loved my mom her (momo) I had to find a job and everything didn’t know how I was going to make it on my own. After my mom passed I shut down & started shutting people out my life stayed in my room and was just depressed, scared and all the above didn’t think I could live anymore without my mom. my mom was like my best friend. This world is scary too me, I’m shy and don’t like talking to people I stay too myself. don’t like drama or anything I’ve never been in a fight in my life. Ever. A lot of things are difficult for me and it’s hard. Sometimes I be in my own little world. I mind my own business and stay out of peoples way. I already know my life will never be the same again. I miss my family!!! 😩