After a long time, it feels like perhaps there's still a lot of healing left to do. Sometimes you feel like you've finally moved on from those things. You start to feel happy, like you've begun to live again, but somehow, out of nowhere, that past comes rushing back, as if it's standing right in front of you, just when you thought you had forgotten everything. It's like those hot winds that come, as if it's a scorching June day, and suddenly it feels like you've been placed in the blazing sun. You go numb. Your routine of waking up on time, sleeping on time, exercising, meditating, reading motivational books, eating and drinking, everything comes to a halt. And then you wonder if you were really forgetting everything or if you were just forcefully trying to revive a dead fish in water.







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