Some things just never change
From the very beginning of my life , i heard teachers telling my parents that they should put me in a special school for my learning disability, normal school is not just the " place for me". Then all through my school life and college life there were people constantly reminding me that i can't do anything in life, i don't deserve good things in life. I cried myself to sleep every night thinking that i don't deserve bad things because i am not a bad person. Above all, inspite of all the negativities i believed that God is by my side. He will pull me out of darkness just when i am about to fall. I could never explain my parents why i hated school so much as a child as there were people who prefer themselves to be called as " teachers" who were confident in me, confident that i will fail in life. Why include just teachers, there were "close relatives" who were happy that i was not doing good in studies or in life and they would be happier now if they knew that i am still facing the same fortune. People lecture me that we make our own destiny and this that, but truth is that we are just puppets in hand of our own destiny. Fast forward to my adulthood which i thought would be happier and smarter , I would be succeeding in my career , making money , be independent and smash everyone's hopes of me being a failure. But guess what , I am what people hoped me to be , a failure who just wouldn't give up and keep standing up no matter how many times i fall and fail .I still dare to stand up repeatedly and try again. I don't know what is stored in for me , but i am really making efforts on myself, working towards a better future so that if not anyone else atleast I can make myself proud for my little achievements.
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