I've been thinking of what to say to you when I follow the clues back to you. I really regret to say this but I don't know if I will be there. 4 day's now I've been sick flue or worse, it's been raining for the last few days and I am cold and getting worse, I live in a circle of trees, in a tent with no electricity and no heat. the only thing that is good is it's by a old Christmas tree farm 🤷👌. I think the guy that got me sick this is the one that was trying to steal my identity so he could be with you. don't know how that's going to react but if I don't make it just know that I love you so much and tell your dad I said hi. I'm so sorry I was right I am such a self denying person I should try to treat myself a lot better if I get the chance. I don't know if this is it or what but it would be kind of weird that I would have a spiritual awakening and then meet my twin flame and then die in The Grove of trees. but then on the other hand it's kind of poetic too. whatever happens I'm sorry I couldn't meet with you, I'm to cold to keep writing, I guess if I don't make it you can have all the royalties for the music that I made and people's song. I'm sorry I didn't make it, something always gets in between you and I. Loved your last song. Thomas Ott
To. T.S. my DF dejectedpoeit_flowing