(rough draft)
Addiction At It's Lowest
As an addict noone really can understand
it's hard for anyone to help and lead them away from where they stand
confinement in their mind of an illusion
lead them to their undeniable confusion
there is no joy in this nightmare
so they numb themselves at the cost of others walfare
whispers creeping in and out from below
ever reminding you it's there just in case you didn't know
it won't come second or last but always play number one
you won't know the true colors of it's fate tell it's all said and done
whats life for if its always chasing to cover what one can't let go of
what's fate if this is all one will ever love
it has you chasing shadows in the darkest valley of ones heart
running to the finish line where morals and values begin to fade and hatred begins to start
relationships come and go with not s soul one could trust
it's all games lies and broken up people searching for lust.
don't think it's easy to walk away
for it wasn't so easy when you took that risk to comfort your mind tonight through the day
when the pain stops and it all goes silent through out the middle of the night
you realize that your crossing between life and death with only your soul in sight
once was lost and broken searching for answers to questions you obsessed about
now your screaming to the sky begging for a way out
the only way to quite the noice in your mind
is leave all that pain and sorrow far far behind
take a bowl to find what makes you laugh
find a vice or something to craft
seek out for guidance from others to support you through your fear
let them show you the way and watch this agony soon disappear
lost and broken down to where one should never be
all because I allowed the darkness to swarm and comfort me
now I find the will to move on every day I breathe
not making excuses why I am the way I am or why I breathe
these struggles helped me. build the strength I ensured through out these years
now instead of running away I find myself facing my fears
no more lonely days searching for love in all the wrong ways
no more wishing and waiting to end the long dragging days
just this sun the trees and the birds who are chirping my song
yes I found a place on this Earth to where I finally belong

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Sheila D Gibson
12/13/2021