I'm a fucking idiot, I let the greatest thing I've ever had in my life slip away because I was to bull headed to admit I needed help. I let the greatest person I've ever loved down, I pushed her away because I'm fucking stupid. I went to work instead of trying to find her, instead of trying to save the greatest thing I have ever been a part of. I let pride blind me and what do I have to be proud of. I lost everything! Everything I love, everything that meant anything to me I lost because I am to bull headed to ask for forgiveness. To stubborn to change, not willing to compromise. I lost my whole life. Baby I'm so sorry. I know it's to late but I'm still so fucking sorry. I love you so fucking much and now it hurts so fucking bad and I deserve it!