I stay in my bed,
turning the other way so that
the sun won't blind my eyes,
I feel my heart breaking,
like there's a pit at the bottom of my stomach that doesn't seem to go away.
I'm not happy neither am I sad,
but I feel down,
not the down you will expect from being sad,
no this is something hard to be
put into words
This is different
it's like I am feeling all my emotions at once
and I just lie there crying with my head buried under the blankets, maybe just maybe the tears would wash away my pain

© Mbali P Nyabane