Out of control, in control, of my emotional needs
Boundaries it seems are a thing for you and me
Or me and me
It seems in your eyes I'm bounded to have no rights
Hypocrisy, shame, shameful me
For having wore the same shoes you gave me
Not comfy, but the similarities to the past has a bit of a ring
A ringing you never heard or felt
One that is haunting and can only be dealt
Dealt with the unsettling answers by someone who doesn't know themselves.
Rejection isn't my favorite game, feels like im rejecting myself
But what do you have to lose when the one you love has done it in a way that you don't want to be known as that previous self
What do you have to gain when one doesn't see the hypocrisy of the expectations and disappointing conversations
In one ear and out the other, I'm sure a deaf man could hear the internal screams
Silent but deadly, I'm really ready to read
Read my story back to you, but not on my own accord
Karma got its own time in its own life for our own deeds
Wish I could give you what I attempted to before
You pushed all that i am away, so far
Im still...